Make Love Not War.

Dragon year

2012-01-16T02:51:00.000+08:00

Chinese New year coming
then valentines day
then 26 feb

i feel too old for chinese new year.
i know it's a weird statement but when i think about the visiting and the going from places to places, i feel a little tired already.
i mean it's necessary cause we don't see all our relatives all the time and some we only visit once a year.
SO I SHOULDN'T complain.

and i haven't bought any chinese new year clothing yet
oh woe!
Went shopping with paul last saturday and he bought loads of clothes but i didnt get to buy!

going to have to quickly get them this week.
Planning to go shopping tomorrow or tuesday and hope i find affordable stuff that i'll really like!
and also i have to help paul to exchange the size for his berms.
NICE OR WHAT? hahahaha!

SHOPPING LIST/ TO DO LIST

-Exchange paul's berms.
-Buy jeans
-buy nice tube/spag top
-buy basic tank top especially in white.
-buy chinese new year clothes.

ps. urgh i want to exercise more! Go swimming or something damn it!
pps. i wish we had more time together.

School

2012-01-09T01:35:00.003+08:00

school is starting tomorrow.
i feel abit unprepared for it.
why does the holidays always end so fast!

sigh.. school is at 12pm tomorrow!

but i'm happy to report that i went for a jogging session last week and i'm gonna keep it up this week too!

and for the rest of the year and keep to my other 2012 resolutions as well.

Me with temperory waves

UGHHH i'm so sick of my hair i really need to go for a haircut and just do something about it.
I'm so bored with it :(

Chinese New year coming! i'm intending to go shopping for clothes this week
and maybe also over the weekends with paul.

He complains he got no clothes to wear
he also complains that he dont want to take photographs with me already because it seems like he is always wearing the same shirt HAHAHAH!

hahaha went for a photoshoot last sat with so many of the girls!
hopefully the pictures turn out nice.

hahaha oh well we'll see!

Resolutions

2012-01-02T23:40:00.001+08:00

Happy New year to all!!

i have horrible nails need to go get them done as soon as possible LOL

its 2012 and it's the dragon year, can't wait to go chinese new year shopping!

Dad just passed me some money to buy new year clothes!

i love my dad!

it's like tradition that every year he passes us (my sister and i) some money to buy new clothes for cny

maybe once i hit 21years old he'll stop

so this might be my last year getting money for new year's clothes.

Well we'll see hahaha!

Random pictures.

okay so my 2012 resolutions are!

1. Be a better driver, i need more opportunities to drive the car!

2. Get at least 3 Distinctions for each of the 2 semesters this year

3. Go on a vacation with friends

4. Hit and maintain the amount i want in my bank.

5. Go exercise whether its jogging swimming badminton bball etcetc at least once a week.

although i only have 5 resolutions this year
they are not an easy feat for me but i have decided i want to try.

Especially resolution number 2 and 5. These 2 will be my toughest challenge!

WISH ME LUCK!

and anyone keen to do resolution 5 with me? welcomed!!

ps. lana del ray's songs can someone send me!
damn nice. Stuck in my head the whole week.

how time flies.

2011-12-22T03:12:00.001+08:00

today i was working for a KIRIN event at clarke quay
and the bar staff asked me "so how young are you?"

and when i replied with my age, it dawned on me how fast every year passes and how fast we age with each passing year.

i'm 20 this year, and i really feel that i've grown over the years
it's not because i'm no longer a teenager anymore. Rather, its the experiences that piles up over the years that shapes me to be the person i am today.

I'm thankful for everyone that has been in my life, the good or the bad. And i'm also thankful for the opportunities and people that remain important in my life.

i know this is a rather awkward and personal post.
but

i'm proud of myself

i'm not the best person out there or the most tolerant, patient, good tempered and kind-hearted soul
but i've been really good this year ( SANTA THIS IS DIRECTED TO YOU) ;)

In fact this year has been good to me too :)
2011 was a very fruitful year for me.

i actually think i achieved "self-actualization" at some points this year.
haha!

So cut the long story short my life has been fruitful and blessed and i thank God and whoever who loves me and is looking out for me!

SO TO REVIEW 2011 NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS!
since the year is coming to an end.

my resolutions:

1) get the freaking driving license

--> i did it! i got it on JULY 18 which is my TP test date which i'll never forget! Proud of myself for being disciplined and getting it done. I also got to thank Paul for this because i kept procrastinating and refuse to look for a private instructor. In the end, paul helped me to look up the details of the private instructor and i finally started taking lessons. If he didn't do this for me i might not have gotten the license! <3

2) replace the iphone.

--> okay first i'm going to say why there was a need to replace the iphone. I AM ESPECIALLY CARELESS WITH MY PHONE! and i'm not proud of this :( i've lost 1 iphone4 (in 2010) and 1 iphone3g (in 2011). The iphone 4 was my old phone and because i lost it my good friend shiling lend me her old iphone3gs which i also lost :(

sigh! BEING MORE CAREFUL WITH MY THINGS will be one of my next years resolution.

i've replaced my iphone with another one thanks to my friend KIMSENG :) who sold it to me!

he was super nice and lend me his previous iphone3g to use before i bought his iphone 4!

3) convince parents to shift home or redecorate my room.

--> guess what i'll be shifting out from YIshun to Yishun! -_-

hahaha guess my parents love it here. My mom wants to shift so my dad and her went house hunting and they've bought a house and we will be moving in 2 years time because its a new flat and the construction is not done LOL. I don't know, i mean i don't mind not shifting i just wanted a new room guess i'll have one in 2 years -_-

4) Go on a vacation with friends.

--> Zilch! NADA! haven't gone on vacation with friends!!!! :( okay this resolution must bring to next year! UNFINISHED BUSINESS!

5) finish unfinished business with Joh.

Sigh! still unfinished hahahaha! Might abort 'unfinished business' though.

6) have more self control in environments where alcohol is present.

I think this year, i've been good! And besides don't club much now. In comparison to 2010 i drank so much lesser this year!

7) look prettier in comparison to 2010

okay now that i look at this resolution. i think it's a pretty stupid one. I MEAN COME ON!! WHO DON'T WANT TO GET PRETTIER WITH EACH PASSING YEAR!

but i can't realy review this resolution..

i look at myself everyday!

even if i've gotten better or worse, i wouldn't know!

HHAAHA

:D next post will be my new resolutions!!!

till next time!

end of year!

2011-12-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

Nice ah!

i made it with an iphone app!

Have you guys seen people writing on these 'balls' in town.
They represent our wishes and it'll be floated down marina bay during new year's eve.

like so :) so nice loh!

We wrote our wishes on the ball at cineleisure.
As you can see stuff like MORE MONEY and MORE CLOTHES and SUCCESSFUL LOVE LIFE ETC were wished for!

Dont judge! because everybody wants that.

Also had a golf event event last week!

For Golfpunk 2011

Quite fun but got a tad tanner.

which is quite alright already because paul can't even tell that i got darker.

but i did.

got the tan lines to prove it!

CHRISTMAS is coming!

and so is new year!

time to review the resolutions for this year and come up with new ones for the next year!

2011 has been a good year for me!

NEW SCHOOL

NEW FRIENDS

NEW JOB

NEW LOVE

fruitful year for me.

There were bad times but the good was way more than the bad

NEXT BLOGPOST I WILL DO THE RESOLUTIONS!

till next time :)

My favourite month

2011-12-05T00:51:00.001+08:00

BELATED PICTURES from birthday celebration.

lol paul has super few shirts. Anyone know where to get nice shirts for guys?

This week has been long and torturous
and i think i'm having the christmas mood. I KEEP BUYING STUFF.

and i feel the need to go christmas shopping some more.
Cannot.
really i cannot overspend.

PROJECT SAVE MONEY
-This week i can only eat at coffeeshop/ homecook food/ fastfood. STRICTLY NO RESTAURANTS AND CAFES AND WHAT NOT. (EVEN WHEN PAUL IS BACK)
-NO CABBING. exception: important meetings
-NO shopping. exception: moisturizer and hairdryer which mom is going to get, and sports shoes which dad is going to get. ( yah i want to go jogging LOL)
i'm thinking if i should allocate some money for christmas shopping -_-
-Best if i go out less, go out more spend more money :(

SIAN I THINK TO HELP THIS WEEK PASS FASTER, i'm going to borrow books to read.
and i want to play mahjong very long never play already :(

okay last part of my blogpost!
i love Christmas!
Have you taken a walk around orchard and seen the decorations yet?! so bright and cheerful and lovely. Christmas tree outside takashimaya even caught fire!

and this is like the last bit of my holidays!
and school will probably start in January.

Anyway i got my results for the first semester in RMIT
and i'm contented!
i hope i can bring myself to work harder though

but that thought scares me. I MEAN SERIOUSLY HOW HARD CAN A PERSON STUDY!
i mean, it takes alot of discipline and focus and how can anyone be so consistent in studying?!
i believe i can be consistent in alot of things but studying. hmm.

-_-

the big 20

2011-11-28T02:07:00.001+08:00

hi guys!
THIS is my first blog post as a 20 year old!
how awesome is that?!?!?!
i'm one year to adulthood LOL!

Firstly i would like to thank all my friends for making it so special and memorable!!
MAN i had the birthday song sung to me 3 times
and made so many wishes because i have to blow out candles for 3 different cakes :)
( 2 cakes and the 3rd was candles placed on muffins)

Also my boyfriend was so sweet :)

Flowers given by him for my birthday 9 roses which symbolises our 9 months together (my monthsary is the same as my birthday LOL)

although he had alot of help from KIMSENG :D so special thanks to kim too :)

Paul may not know it but everything in the flower is my fav first the peachy pink coloured roses that i like:) the lavender flowers and the baby breaths! Even the wrapping in peach purple and gold makes it so pretty! this is my first ever bouquet of flowers!!!

i've received flowers but never in a bouquet :)

i wrote a blog entry entry about my favourite flowers before

read it here:

>>>>>> MY FAVOURITE FLOWER! <<<<<<<<

hahah babe's birthday present to me :)
AN EROTIC NOVEL HAHAHHAHA
this is a special book cause it's a personalized erotic novel!
hahah the main characters are (as written in the book)

"starring :

Cynthia Neo

Paul Saik"

i've finish reading it and it's pretty good. really erotic LOL.

Babe also wrote me a card :)

i think the words on the card is damn sweet

so was the message written ^^

And then we dined at Marriott hotel for the international buffet.
hella expensive!
but serves sashimi and oysters all.
To me not worth the price though should go swissotel for the international buffet.
like price more competitive and selection about the same.

HAHAH BABE SPAMMED THE RAW FOOD.
and ate like 8 or more raw oysters by himself LOL

The strawberry cake was lovely.

tastes good :)

MOM's going to buy this set of skin care products as my birthday present! i cannot wait!!
i love the moisturizer!!!

Also i would like to thank JOH and BEC for coming down to my house to surprise me in the middle of the night!

POOR THEM! they waited 2 hours for me cause i went to pick my sister up from church and then drove her and my dad for supper before going back!

HOW WOULD I KNOW MY SUPER AWESOME FRIENDS WERE WAITING FOR ME AT HOME HAHHA!

and then we talk the whole night through and they stayed over at my place :)

oh man surprise after surprise :)

LASTLY TERESA, JANN and the people at the event i was doing.
after i ended my event, TERESA came in with muffins (with candles stuck to it)
and everyone SANG Happy birthday to me. BY EVERYONE I MEAN EVERYONE like 20 odd people or so!

i was so overwhelmed and touched cause i was having a bad day on 25th nov.
that i was moved to tears =.=
Can't believe i cried i hate crying in front of people.
hahahahahah

ahhh i think this concludes the surprises and all during the birthday.
i'm so happy right now thinking about last saturday :)

okay this random picture is the unfinished mini hamper i made for babe
as a gift for our 9 months being together :)

sweet or what??
HAHAAHAHHA

What can i say except
"so awesome my 20th birthday!"

AND THERE COULD BE MORE FUN!
cause i'm meeting shiling and teresa tomorrow hahahah :)

oh man i love my Family, Friends and Boyfriend
:D

PEACE OUT XOXOX

last week.

2011-11-21T18:32:00.001+08:00

My favourite picture!

LAST WEEK.

Worked for FOX for their media convention last monday and tuesday.

Was the barista and the candy "caretaker" LOL
LOOK AT ALL THOSE SWEETS!
we get to 'tapao' some home also

Me at work. look at the board behind me!
MY FAVOURITE SHOWS (Masterchef and dog whisperer) LOL!
i'm so sad cause i missed the last episode of masterchef
Sian so infuriating cause i really want to watch it!

The other girls that worked with me were Fiona and Audrey.
HAHA the people at the convention all call us 'angels'
as in charlies' angels cause there's 3 of us.

*all FOX photos taken from fiona's blog :)

Also worked for Artery Bar for their anniversary on Friday

I LOVE THIS PICTURE! I EVEN MADE IT MY FACEBOOK DISPLAY PICTURE.
and i posted it twice in my blog post! hahahahah

i had fun working with the girls!

Hopefully i get to work with them again soon :)

Babe booked out on Wednesday cause he had his wisdom tooth extracted and had MC and can leave from camp! freaking awesome! so we went to watch immortals and puss in boots (SO CUTE)!

and had time to just relax at home
how awesome is that.
The next time we can spend so much time together is probably next month during his block leave
during christmas.

For now i just hope he doesn't get confined in camp this weekend
cause it's my birthday on Saturday!

hehe^^

On sunday, Kboxed with shiling joh and elena

to celebrate shiling's 20th on 20.11.2011

after that went to Modestos to eat.

and ordered BEEF BOLOGNESE which is like my favourite pasta of all time.

i realize that whenever i eat pasta

8 out of 10 times i choose beef bolognese HAHAHA!

AWESOME WEEK LAST WEEK.

Hopefully this week is just as awesome!

oh my i am really really enjoying my holidays :)

Working tomorrow at SMU for the KITKAT CAMPAIGN!

See you if i see you!

11/11/11

2011-11-11T02:51:00.001+08:00

i think it's a special day because it's rare to get such dates.
11/11/11

Even though it's just a normal friday, everybody can choose to make it special.
Surprise someone you love or give your parents a hug

Why not? (i'm not saying that you should only do such things on special dates)

To the people who believe in the magic that today can bring.
I say 'why not?' make it a memorable one.

To the people who feel that this day is just any other random day no big deal, then just lead your lives normally.

Don't burst the spirit and say things like "i don't know why idiots believe in 11/11/11"
Cause i don't really think it's idiotic to make any day special.
and why do you have to hate on something that YOU SUPPOSEDLY don't even care.
So yeap i get it.
you don't care.
so now everyone who wants to make that day special are idiots?

Honestly, i think that 11/11/11 is also just another friday.
But i want to do something special for a loved one on this day

this post is just random
and me thinking about why there's so much self-centeredness

For example,

When steve jobs died
and everyone was talking about him
i read tweets like

"you don't even care when he's alive and now he's dead and you're suddenly so interested in him"

i mean DUH!
he just died!!
obviously he'll be talked about!
OBVIOUSLY people will be interested

DISCLAIMER:
i know this post sounds slightly self-righteous (whatver!! haha)
but this post actually came about not because i think the matter is wrong.
It's more like i'm very irritated with the other group of people who doesn't say nice things most of the time and when i read those nasty things, IT'S NOT LIKE INTERESTING GOSSIP AND STUFF. It's just complains about mundane stuff.

PET PEEVE ON SOCIAL NETWORKS
1. i dislike reading mundane complains about too many things
2. i get annoyed when i read stuff like "boy i love you" then the next day "boy i hate you" and "come on ask me out" and the next day "fuck off from my life, who do you think you are" and stuff like "3 guys just asked for my number" *ROLLS EYES
3. arrogant posts like "you know you want to get to know me cause i'm awesome" (and they don't even mean it jokingly because they make this kind of statuses almost every other day) *rolls eyes

I KNOW SO MANY PEOPLE ARE GOING TO AGREE WITH ME.

GIF

2011-11-09T02:33:00.000+08:00

HI there!!
how do you like the GIF i created LOL!
i love the iphone! you can do anything there!

so tomorrow i'll be working at Ngee Ann Poly for a kitkat event.
and later going out with teresa and shiling for another movie!

today i caught footloose and tomorrow i'm catching one day!

RECENTLY i have been catching so many movies!
the list below.

1. 2359 (okay movie, Mark Lee is funny and the movie super singapore context so i think it's okay)
2. real steel ( awesome!)
3. what's your number ( hmmm not too bad chris evans is hot.)
4. paranormal activity ( i don't like.)
5. footloose ( very nice!! cause i like this type of movies)

soon to join the list

6. one day
7. lion king 3d!

hope i can catch lion king i haven't watched it in so long. Although nobody is really interested in watching that with me :(

*cross fingers* i need more work this month! i'm having holidays!!!

in the mean time you can ask me any questions on formspring:

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till next time ;)

Professing my love haha!

2011-11-01T03:24:00.002+08:00

I LOVE THIS PICTURE ALOT!

and i want more backpacks like the one i'm carrying!!

so nice one!

but i always don't see backpacks that i like :(

this week is sort of busy and stressful.

i have 3 major papers to take for examinations

1 down yesterday and 2 more to go.

Paul's in field camp and i miss him so much :(

army is such a bf snatcher! >:(

kidding. haha as long as still can meet out sometimes during weekends or can call or message me,

i'll be okay with that.

This week he's doing field camp in the jungle.

(below is me being jokingly mushy)

i told him

"that means cannot hear your voice for 4 days?"

and he said

"do you want me to record it for you?"

which i should have said yes. (i didn't say yes cause we were obviously joking)

but i should have!

i'm just wondering what he'll record

confirm wont be those i love you types of mushy mushy messages... just cannot imagine that he'll record himself saying that (hilarious!)

okay this blog post is just me being bored on a monday night (tuesday wee hours in the morning) and waiting for my hair to dry so i use this as an excuse to post the picture i love so much and also sort of profess my love for my boyfriend HAHAHAHAAH!

GOODNIGHT XOXO.

TIRING WEEKS

2011-10-26T21:22:00.000+08:00

STUPID EXAMS WEEK! makes me so drained and tired
i'm down with one paper and still have 3 more to go :(

worst thing is that it coincides with halloweeeeen
i never get to really celebrate halloween every year :(

haha some random day at work:)
i love those boots but my toes hurts after i wear them why all nice shows like that!

and i cant believe babe ate all that oysters by himself
i'm not a fan of oysters so yeap i didn't eat it

he loves it.

kept "mmmmmm" -ing away.

:D happy 8th month! <3
thanks for your love!

I LOVE THIS PICTURE!!
the baby is too cute!
why the eyes so big?!
cannot stand it

ps. it is exactly one month to my birthday
HAHAHA

What hurts the most

2011-10-18T03:53:00.001+08:00

Was being so close.
Having so much to say
And watching you walk away.

Feeling so unimportant
When it was so easy to come to a decision to let go.
How important does this make it all.

Shouldn't we treasure the things we have and want and not do things we will regret?

The immense hurt that happens when we're about to lose a part of our lives that we have come to accept and get used to.

The utter feeling of disappointment and defeat when you feel that maybe this whole time it was only you fighting for it all.

How much do I mean to you a question I might never get an answer.

Maybe someone better is out there for you.
Maybe I'm not good enough to make you want to stay

Fucking hell
I'd rather be angry but all I feel is hurt and disappointment. I can't help myself I'm in the destructive bubble that causes hurt over and over again.

It's hard to go about my daily life knowing that sometimes things are not going to go my way. Its hard when you've been my support and strength for a long time.

It's really hard.

A penny for my thoughts

2011-09-29T02:21:00.002+08:00

THIS IS AWESOME!!!
i really couldnt spot the guy until the 8th try or something LOL i looked really hard!

Okay i went to the zoo today
after like 8 or 10 years

Acheivements:
-only one mosquito bite.
-i found out i was a good map navigator

but actually come to think of it. HOW COME ONLY I GOT BITTEN.
how come my fellow explorers and companions unscarred?

tough luck.

Anyway weather was great.
Basically it was a good day to visit the zoo.
MORE PHOTOS to be uploaded next time.

sadly i think i got one shade darker.
AND I'M BEYOND TIRED right now.
the only reason why i'm blogging is beacause my hair havent dried :(

and i hate using the hairdryer.
oh my.. the trouble #firstworldpains

ooo a random vintage-y looking photo i really like
HAHAA!

OKAY
actually i was thinking lately after i saw this ad on groupon
that a bouquet of flowers can get at 50% off if purchase the coupon.
normal price 56 now 28 or something.

and at the side it says '150 bought'
so i was thinking
what if all the couples blog or post the photo of the bouquet of flowers and it all looks the same HAHAH!
THEN I WOULD GO "OOO I KNOW WHY HE GOT THAT!"
and then it led me to think!
i haven't ever gotten or received a bouquet of flowers!

i've received sunflowers for my birthday
and stalks of roses
but not a bouquet.

Is it a dying type of courting gift?
accessories seem to be the gift item of choice this days.
and i know bouquets are expensive.
come to think of it i've never bought a bouquet for anyone also.
mom's birthday coming
maybe i shall get for my mom next time for her birthday and accompany it with an angbao... she sure like LOL!

so many things i haven't done know!
-like sat on an elephant ride! (found that out when i went to the zoo)
-go to bangkok; i dont freaking know anyone of my friends (of around my age) who hasnt been there.
- go overseas with friends.

okay the last part of my post is kind of a rant and its kind of cryptic.
i cant stand how superficial things are sometimes
sometimes its so hard cause i'm so opinionated.
but i have to keep these opinions to myself because there is no place for my opinions in that situation,
and actually it doesn't even matter there.
my job is just to do my task and thats that.
no need for opinions no need for tolerance because i shouldn't even get affected.

but the good thing is
- i've learn not too take things personally

some people are just placed there to make your life difficult.
the best feeling is to outsmart them.

and when there's no point in doing that.
just keep quiet and accept (agree to disagree)

too many people nowadays feel that they are too good to hear other people's advice/opinions
i include myself in this statement.
i know how opinionated i can be but at the same time, i really try to see things in someone's else pov.
you nvr know what other things you might see when you put yourself and allow yourself to be in another's shoe.
respecting another's opinion. i think that's like a lost virtue.

this post is to remind myself to always be humble
even when i've make it big and have a wealth of experience
and to accept other people's opinions with an open mind.

URGHH sometimes its just so frustrating though!!!!
and i know no one REALLY understands what i'm trying to say.

I hate Sundays

2011-09-26T14:24:00.001+08:00

Not only does it symbolize the end of weekends.
It also mean there's a whole new week coming up.
And probably you're rushing the reports/essays that needs to be handed up on Monday.

And for some your boyfriend goes back to army.

and the feeling of dread...

So monday comes and its back to the same stuff while we look forward to Fridays.

So it's Monday today and actually this week will be pretty good. All essays done, and we'd and thurs no school.

Singing kbox on tues, wed going to celebrate teresa's birthday and possible clubbing on wed and thurs

And paul's booking out early on fri!!!

Good week ahead

Ooo blogger for iPhone!!

2011-09-15T01:46:00.001+08:00

Hi guys,
I can now blog using my iPhone with the new blogger app!!

This is great. Posting photos on the go and blogging while I'm on any transportation.
Totally see myself blogging much more!!

I'm so tired lately but it'll be worth it. I want to be financially healthy.
Don't want to scrimp and save when I shop etc. So I rather work although it's super tiring doing that and school at the same time.

Super tiring and I feel kinda alone and depressed sometimes and no one to talk to :( lol dumb woes.

And the thing about my job is, I have to go to different places. And this makes me heavily reliant on my google maps and gps.
My cab fare expenditure hits a new high
And!
I am constantly put into situations that I'm not v comfortable in.

New situations.
Weird situations.
Troublesome issues.

Wtheck.
The worst is errands that I have to run freaking takes up so much of my time
And totally drains my energy:(

Yah you ask me what errands. But it's a long and boring story that I do not wish to share.

Its so weird but I feel like I'm happy that I'm utilizing all my time making money and juggling my studies just fine.

But then again.
Sometimes, i just get so tired and unhappy:( and there's no one to talk to :( cause it's so late at night already.

So mostly I just complain on blogger and twitter.

I really hope work tmr and fri runs
Smoothly.

Please let luck stay by my side this week.
Super looking forward to the weekends! I need a good rest!!

Ps. Should I get wavy hair?

September

2011-09-13T02:02:00.001+08:00

havent blogged in a long time.

today after a long tiring journey of essays to complete. i finally can rest for a few days to regain my energy and start on yet another essay.

oh well. life.

caught Smurf today! and it's smurftastic!
i love grouchy he's my favorite!
Next is clumsy, so cute. HAHA

Haven't caught a movie in the cinemas for such a long time :) glad i caught smurf today!
hopefully can catch crazy stupid love and also another show thats coming up called:

Dolphin's tale.

Anyway i can't believe i celebrated mooncake festival with my sec school mates!
havent met all of them in the longest time.
Glad we got to meet out and chat today!
Felt like a 15 year old playing with candles and sparklers! HAHA.

ALSO MANAGED TO PLAN A KBOX SESSION.
soonsoon really havent gone in the longest time.
i really want to!

SO busy this month.
love my online journal too much to throw it away though. so just had to do an update

so the rest of september is going to be

HR project
HMT essay
WORK 3 times this week
Golf event next week.
POSSIBLE F1 event.

pray that luck be on my side this month :)

ps. i think for my next post i'll post something interesting!

not sure what yet though; feel like writing my opinions on some matter.

now and forever.

2011-09-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

FAVOURITE SONG OF THE MONTH!

:') this song is so sweet.

Studying is not fun.

really.

on an unrelated note that has no relevance to the starbucks pictures above,

coffee bean's 'VANILLA' is damn nice!

i dont drink coffee so

starbucks i drink: iced chocolate

coffee bean: vanilla

really damn nice for people with sweet tooth.

HAHA.

ps. love her tattoo
XOXO

rant about transportation.

2011-08-31T00:47:00.000+08:00

i've been neglecting blogging cause i've been so busy.

i feel like i have alot to do sometimes.
Most of the time i get very frustrated because of the traveling.
I HATE TAKING PUBLIC TRANSPORT!

1) it doesnt bring me to my doorstep.
2) alot of walking and changing of bus/ trains involved
3) my job requires me to go to places i've never been before and i'm heavily reliant on google maps and its a chore finding out which public transport i have to take and exactly where to alight.

It also doesn't help that:
a) cabbing is too expensive
b) i have a license but i don't have a car ( and at this point i don't even dare to realy drive my dad's car cause lack of practice)

HOW IRRITATING!
and its so time consuming.
i dont know if only i feel this way.
AND HAVING A SCHOOL AT CLEMENTI FURTHER DRIVES ME UP THE WALL.
my average journey from sch to home by bus is 1hr 30min MINUMUM!

i miss schooling at NYP where a train ride was just 5 min away :(

okay something good though.
I love how i'm using up all my time,
splitting it evenly(i hope) between school, work, friends and boyfriend.
yes i feel v sad that my family is not included but yes when i go home we have dinner/lunch and that is sort of considered and time with my dad in the car is also considered spending time.

okay i better finish my HRM essay because OT is frighteningly only 2 weeks away

Bonsignora

2011-08-22T02:55:00.001+08:00

I love this top!

i think i'm going to get it plus also get their bandage skirt cause the quality is good!
They just launched their first collection and the stuff are pretty nice.

start shopping at

http://bonsignora.com

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photo blogged!

went out with the girls on a random day to chill.

Joh was there too but forgot to take photos with her :x

Went to club last wed wearing this dress

I LOVE THIS DRESS :)

didnt take pictures with the girls though
which was kinda silly considering the fact that we rarely get dressed up and go clubbing this days
LOL!

random but

recently i downloaded an iphone photo app!

and it has super cool filters like in my above 2 photos

my love for the iphone!

i want to get the ipad but somehow, its kind of redundant for me.

oh well :)
till next post!

how true.

2011-08-16T02:15:00.002+08:00

While one person may choose a path of isolation to dull the pain of a loveless existence, others may choose a dramatically different way. Not necessarily a better way, just a different one.

Some lives can be explained only by the maddening effect of love.

I have friends who have virtually sold their souls hoping to be loved. Some mask their pain through indifference, but others through false intimacy. We all long to belong. We all need to be connected to something bigger than ourselves. Whether we like it or not, much of our self-worth is rooted in how others feel or think about us. If we belong to no one, we begin to feel that we are worthless. Because of this, we will do almost anything to belong to someone or to belong to something.

Sex, unfortunately, is used as a shortcut to love.

Sex can be the most intimate and beautiful expression of love, but we are only lying to ourselves when we act as if sex is proof of love. Too many men demand sex as proof of love; too many women have given sex in the hopes of love. We live in a world of users where we abuse each other to dull the pain of our aloneness. We all long for intimacy, and physical contact can appear as intimacy, at least for a moment.

Is there any moment that feels more filled with loneliness than the second after having sex with someone who cares nothing about you?

There is no such thing as free sex. It always comes at a cost. With it, either you give your heart, or you give your soul. It seems you can have sex without giving love, but you can’t have sex without giving a part of yourself.

When sex is an act of love, it is a gift. When sex is a substitute for love, it is a trap.

Have you ever met a fifty-five-year-old womanizer? It’s pretty sad really. Most of the ones I’ve known didn’t remain single on paper, just in principle. In and out of marriages, in and out of relationships, they point to their detachment as proof of their self-sufficiency. They are the guys in college guzzling the beer and sweating that they would be single for life. They probably should have kept that commitment. They looked so cool when they were twenty-two.

Most guys, if they were honest, would admit that they envied them. What a life—get drunk, sleep with a stranger, throw up, sneak awkwardly out, avoiding all eye contact, get some sleep so you can go to church the next day. No wonder we wanted to be like them. They were our heroes in college, unless, of course, we were able to see past the allure of vomit to see what was really going on.

Most of us know these guys just don’t get it. Love isn’t about volume. Love isn’t about conquest. When we live like this, there’s something deeper going on inside us that we’re trying to ignore, even drown out. We are alone, disconnected, and deficient in love. Deep down inside we know we cannot fill the vacuum within our souls by consuming people. We are not only robbing others; we are pillaging our own souls.

Eventually it hits you: you cannot take love; you have to give it. Love is a gift that cannot be stolen.

You may think you’re having a great time, but you’re actually wasting precious time. What feels cool at twenty-two leaves you cold at fifty-five. It’s funny how the people who are often described as great lovers are often unfamiliar with it. Western culture’s primary male icons have been Casanova, Don Juan, and Rudolph Valentino, and now it’s —— [you fill in the blank]. These, among others, are placed in the category of the world’s greatest lovers. We should consider this an insult to both men and love. Love is not about how many people we have used, but about how much we have cherished one person. I’ve come to find over time that players are the ones who are most afraid. They are afraid to love, and so they make it a game. They’re terrified of loving deeply, and so they keep everything superficial. I think deep inside they wonder whether any woman could actually love them if she really knew who he was.

If you really believe you were capable of loving deeply and profoundly, what in the world would keep you from it? Is it that your heart so longs for love and longs to love, but you’ve settled for so much less?

Then there are the people who believe in love but do not believe that they are worthy of it. You find them moving from one destructive relationship to another. What they call love, any reasonable person would call abuse. It’s almost impossible to understand why they choose to stay in those relationships. You can’t seem to talk them out of it. If you dare say anything about their partners, they are the first to defend them. They are held hostage by their need for love. They are made victims because they don’t believe they deserve love, so they settle for whatever they can get. I have met way too many women who have given their bodies to men as a trade-off for a poor imitation of love.

How can you make sense of a person who moves from one relationship to another, making her body the object of another’s pleasure or abuse, except to acknowledge the painful reality that human beings fear almost nothing more than being alone?

— Erwin McManus

Memories

2011-08-13T02:40:00.000+08:00

havent blogged in so long.

Been busy with work and school and stuff!
Glad i have a week of sch holiday next week!

went out with my favourite girls today.
Joh, Bec and Sam
havent met them up in the longest time
reminisced about the past and laughed at our mistakes and applaud our achievements.
talked about work, school, boys

and generally life.
and what our intention and short term goals were.

as we all grow older,
we all have our own commitments and goals and matters to settle.
Didn't even realize how much i missed the girls until i properly met up with them.

Funny how sometimes i feel so alone when the closest people are not there by my side
excluding shiling and paul (HAHA)
so mushy this post, but i really miss my close friends!

stressed.

2011-08-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

i like this dress!

waraku on a random day

TANNED BOYFRIEND.

finally bought a cap that he likes.

fish eyed camera.

haagen diaz with kim kexian and paul

shitty webcam quality

excellent digi cam quality.

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now the reason why i'm stressed.

work and school.

there's something about new experiences, they are too often too unsettling.

yea all the talk about getting out there

and getting out of your comfort zone

and gaining new experiences.

IT IS SO FUCKING HARD.

it's tough to put yourself out there for everyone to judge and see if you're worthy

and when you're working.

it's most of the time like this.

i like to think i'm an opportunist

but at the same time, how can i, a worrywart

possibly be an opportunist?

i get way too anxious over too many things

i don't like to lose opportunities cause sometimes i believe that any one of these opportunities could be a big break. ( something like "yes man")

but at the same time i don't like putting myself out there too much.

i don't even know if people understand what i'm talking about.

too many times too many of these opportunities are hard.

because it requires me to get out of my comfort zone and do things that i've never done before.

"what if i'm not good enough"

"what if i don't do well"

i think i'm a pretty confident and independent person. ( i like to think LOL)

but i'm definitely still a normal average young teenager

and all these anxiousness comes from probably

the fear of not measuring up.

/fear of disappointing people.

but normally the satisfaction is so great when you do a good job on something that you were previously unsure about.

from time to time i get feelings like this.

and they only go away after i get the job done.

oh well,

this week is going to be one hell of a week.

sex objects.

2011-07-29T01:53:00.001+08:00

i find this photo super sexy.
LOL i want to do a shoot like that someday HAHAHAHAH! just no guts to do something like that
and then there's the cultural and conservative asian beliefs.....
and then there's the parents issue and what not....

i've decided that i'm going to do this for my wedding album.
not exactly this, this.
but something with a concept thats similar.
but the denim concept so sexy.
dont know i can think of better ones anot.

LOL!

Anyway i was thinking about what my employment relationship lecturer said today.
"he said stewardesses are sex objects."
okay thats not how he put it but that's the underlying meaning.

and i'm thinking, thats so true.
high paying menial job.
but high paying anyway because looks is a factor when hiring stewardesses.
so is the acting industry and so is the modeling industry.
and all these industries are more "okay" to work in because its glamorized.
Tell your mom
"hey mom i'm going to do stewarding/ modeling"
and she wont violently object or anything.
tell her you're working at a strip club and....
yeap you can think of your own disapproving reaction.

and i'm trying to think of a time where we look at men as sex objects.
hmmm have but fewer.
think those thai flower boys type of place or think male prostitution.
but i think hell lot lesser than women.
brad pitt or bradley cooper might be thought of as a sex objects, but can't be help they're so sexy.
LOL
joke.
but how come all the handsome men got "brad" in it?

okay la all this talk about gender
Got to go start on the HAKIM essay paper.
and write my thoughts in that instead of here.

till next time
xoxo

Bliss.

2011-07-25T20:16:00.002+08:00

is when you are contented with many/ all areas of your life.
when you feel happy all the time.
when you know someone cares about you.
when you know friends are always there
when you know how supportive your family is.
when you accomplish something great.
when your hard work has paid off.

Recently life has been more than blissful for me:)
i'm thankful.

okay side track. photos from a cheongsam event!

OH and i cut my hair recently!

and i plan to revamp my room
and paint my room, any volunteers?

Teehee.

ps. our time together is never quite enough.

why do girls normally go for the jerks.

2011-07-18T19:14:00.001+08:00

so the other day i was debating with a friend on twitter.

he wrote on his status.
"why do girls always say they want nice guys and yet go for the jerks?"

so i replied him on twitter and it later inspired me to write this post.

So first definition of jerk.
if we think about the stereotypical jerk, we think:
-players
-cheaters
-wife-beaters
-assholes
and men along that line.
Basically, a jerk to me is someone who intentionally treat others badly and is also inconsiderate, arrogant, vain and only cares about himself cause he thinks he's up there.

basically sad to say, many handsome men tend to be jerks. ( there are of course exceptions)
hard truth but its not a shocker actually.
Handsome men think they can have it all and they don't care about how others feel.
their vanity makes them think they're cooler than everyone and hence it shows in how they treat other people.

and by nice guys, people think:
-faithful
-dedicated
-true care and love
etc,etc insert sweet romantic guy who's always there

Basically, i would say that a nice guy is someone who definitely is a good friend, treat others with respect, understands humility and knows how to be a gentlemen.
sounds good right?

BUT WHY DO THEY STILL FINISH LAST?

truth is, girls are humans as well.
and humans are all shallow to a certain extent.
same goes for guys.

1) superficiality.
people are attracted to attractive people and we have already established that most handsome men tend to be jerks and so this kind of explains the first most obvious reason of why girls go for the jerks.

SO SAD RIGHT!! where's the humility in handsome men! They are blessed with the looks but they don't match up in the "character" department

2) Some girls love a challenge.
what do i mean?
some girls just want what is hard to get, jerks play hard to get all the time because they sometimes genuinely can't care less. And some girls are in love with the idea of being able to "change" a guy to be totally head over heels in love with her. The more the guy doesn't want her the more she wants him.
(this works when girls play hard to get and guys totally "bites" the bait)

3) drama queens
they love the attention they get from a complicated relationship, She just need the drama in her life. maybe to validate her self worth, maybe to make her life exciting. and jerks, well, definitely unpredictable, hot and cold and definitely adds complication

worst thing is most girls don't really consciously know that their boyfriends are jerks.

At this point of blogpost, guys will be clapping their hands and going "i knew it i knew it" girls are really contradicting themselves when they want the nice guys but go for the jerks all the time.

but wait there's still the other side.
i have a theory.

1) Jerks know how to get the chicks.
They are assholes, sure. BUT they are confident/arrogant enough to go pass the "fear of rejection" phase and actively woo the girls. The nice guys lose out here because they think the key is to be the girl's friend first.
Correct!
but only half correct, you have to up your game after being friends with a girl for awhile or else you'll forever remain her friend and you'll be the guy she comes to when she have boy problems in future. when actually you want to be the man in her life, you become another "girlfriend".
Which totally sucks.

2) Most nice guys are taken or gay.
and the remaining nice guys do not know how to dress up or are just too well hidden (sad). DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF LOOKING GOOD. you feel more confident and that gives you higher chances to get your girl. First impression counts, go for a date looking and smelling good!

imagine if the girl meets you and she didn't shave.... or smells like she just finish jogging. point proven LOL.

but seriously, honestly.
i really don't think most girls rather go for the jerks.
Any of you guys reading this, if you're a jerk and you have a girlfriend, THEN STOP BEING A JERK.
but if you're not a jerk and have a girlfriend, then it proves my point!
SEE not all girls go for the bad boys.

i stick to my stand, We like nice MEN. :)

PS. i fucking pass my driving!!!!
i'm so fucking happy!!!

WOOHOOOOO!

SIM and SAF

2011-07-13T23:10:00.002+08:00

So i started school.
and my first lesson happen to be sickeningly 8.30am.
and i was late.
Not a very good start i would say but still i'm sure it'll get better after i get car license and stuff :)

sucks to live so far away from school

on a random note.
i love mahjong!
i was losing the other day
and i manage to win a BIG ONE and recouped all my loses cause of that.
in the end i still walked away with 4bucks hah (small joys in life)

paul with hair. you'll know why i post this picture later ;)

The alienish make up i promised i'll post

cheong sam fashion show

waxed gaogao hair

makeup artist

and babe went and became a monk! :'(

:'(

nah kidding its the saf. LOL
he's currently serving the army for 2 years.
and i'm getting my degree in 2 years.
coincidental huh.

sad life of only being able to come out in the weekends.

okay just photo updates.

my next post is going to be a POV/debating type of blog post which i shall name:

*drumroll* please
.

Why do girls normally go for the jerks.

ps. Help me click the ads at the side bar pleaseeeeee :)

photos and makeup

2011-07-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

Random day i went out with joh to get nails done.

Random day at dempsey. working

Random day on a date.

HAHAHA
SORRY ABOUT THE LACK OF LITERARY CONTENT.

okay before i end i need to rant.

MAKEUP.
Eyeliner and lash is the best invention in the world.
They really open up your eyes.
at least for me.

today i did a sort of cheong sam fashion show and they didn't use eyeliner on me.
Needless to say i was v depress.
But i guess i look alright....

you can wait for my next picture post to see

ALIEN-ish stage make up :)

ps. "alienish" is the word the make up artist used to describe our make up

think lady gaga music vids.
but in a asian way.

clothes buffet review. And my new doggy.

2011-07-05T02:02:00.004+08:00

Went for a clothes buffet recently
and to my dismay,we were very unsatisfied.
Their selling point was that for the amount we paid for the bag, we could bring out anything we could stuff in the bag given.

sounds good yea.

The reasons why it wasn't:

1) okay the bags were so much smaller than expected.
in the email they specified the size of the bag. there were 2.

Size of $30 bag : the volume of the bag is 2488.5 cm3

Size of $45 bag : the volume of the bag is 5000 cm3

i wanted to go for the $30 bag for the buffet but they said that it was sold out. So my friend joh and i decided to share a $45 bag.

So we didn't actually visualize how big these bags would be.

On that day we found out that
the $30 bag can only put in one side of a pair of heels. Thats how small it is.
but the $45 bag was more worth it though. can put in a pair of heels and some clothings LOL

the disappointing part comes later.

2)we were only given 15min to shop and then we had to check out

This was extremely disappointing because the email states:

Thank you! Payment has been received.

You have an hour to shop. The money is not refundable or exchangable for any other products except for______________ Clothes Buffet on 25th June 20XX.

it states 1hr in the email and they only gave us 1/4 of that time on the actual day, which was 15 minutes.
we nearly didnt have time to pack what we wanted into the bag!

WHAT HAPPEN TO "you have an hour to shop."?

3) Selection was limited.

i mean i understand they have to do a business and all. The bag being small was understandable. The timing was cut short because of "overwhelming demand" according to them. BUT
How can you decrease the timing on your customer's expense when thats not what you wrote in your email and you didn't bother to follow up with another email to inform us of the change of timing.

The better way to deal with overwhelming demand is to lengthen the time. You should cope with this on your expense. Not ours.

Selection was limited, kind of expected actually so i shall not complain about it. Clearing stocks and all.

Overall, it wasn't a good experience :(
i would never go for another clothes buffet ever again.
worse is.

i'll never buy clothes from the retailer who organized the clothes buffet also.
that's how bad the experience was.

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updates of my life:

Count down to university life: 8 days.

my first day of school is 13 July because i dont have lessons on monday and tuesday. LOL but i do have lessons on saturday. =.=

Same stuff working:

More beerfest pictures

Woking/partying at wavehouse with gerard, rachel and her friends

accompanying paul because coincidentally he also goes to army next week.

No more hair.

and no more home comforts like

tv.

bed.

toilet.

HAHAHAHA sad case.

My new doggy.

i wish.

But this cute doggy followed us when we went to Yishun dam

and later curled up and sat beside us.

very cute, i think everyone thought it was our doggy.

Don't really know who's doggy though, it was wearing a collar.

ps. ipad is on my wishlist!

pps. do me a favour and help me click on the advertisements on my sidebar. Thank you!

school's starting.

2011-07-01T03:00:00.002+08:00

i'm thinking if i should take up a marketing position and work while studying.
-fix pay a month and some kind of stability.

Or just work for short term events like what i'm doing now.
-flexibility, easy jobs high pay.
DECISIONS DECISIONS.

also i'm starting to think if i'm a lousy driver, because recently my instructor has been super strict and nagging at me and telling me i'm doing this and that wrong blahblahblah, and previously he wasn't like that.
one word- demoralizing
Driving has become such a bore.
BUT I WANT THAT FUCKING LICENSE.
Going to try so damn hard to pass first try and shove it in all you disbelievers' faces.

kidding :) i'm not that mean

but then again..
maybe i'm really a lousy driver :(.
all this negativity. :'(
We can all only know if i'm truly a good driver when i pass my Trafic police test.
If i do it well and pass it on the first try with flying colours.
i guess i can't be that bad. :)

if not.
oh well

till next time,

ps. if theres an advertisement on the sidebar ------> please click it! thanks :) ----->

Beerfest!

2011-06-25T01:12:00.001+08:00

worked for beerfest asia 2011

what can i say?
except that i learnt alot about beer. LOL

heard from some guy that beer was invented in egypt and fed to the sickly in the past.
They call it "liquid bread"
cool huh.

tomorrow maybe singing K!

i want to sing

till next time
stay happy folks

awwww.

2011-06-22T16:01:00.000+08:00

acceptance
contentment
appreciation

simple words but probably hard to find and understand.

into old songs lately.
and feeling like shit today.

she's a freaking good singer.

wavehouse event on 2nd July!

2011-06-22T00:13:00.001+08:00

I'll be going!

who else going?!
ANYONE NEED TICKETS?

details

mail me asap: cynthianeo@facebook.com

when a girl goes silent.

2011-06-14T01:09:00.002+08:00

For clueless guys out there.
What to say/do
when a girl goes silent.

if you were quarreling and she goes silent....
1) she's seething mad but don't want to scream and quarrel with you she's controlling herself but she's going to be ignoring you next. So expect the cold shoulder, cool down and talk to her. give in compromise.

2) she's hurt and feels like crying.
she doesn't say anything, you think that she's angry but she's actually really hurt and don't know what to say. ( the trick is to read body language, anger: maybe she's stomping off etc, sometimes anger is used to mask hurt, tricky, but you should see the difference after awhile)
if she's hurt, she's crying inside probably. At this point what she needs is a hug.
play this carefully don't pull her into a hug without warning, she's going to push you away cause you are the cause of her hurt after all.
Ask her what's wrong, if she says "nothing" don't ever believe that LOL! slowly caress her hands, hold them in yours and if you still don't know what is wrong, ask her "whats wrong?". Other wise apologize if you know what you said had hurt her feelings, then give her a hug.

or you can pull her into a hug and fight her when she resist you and hug her real tight. ( i really don't recommend this if you're not close to the girl and if she's REALLY MAD AT YOU.)

FOR GIRLS:
don't always get all moody and quiet on your guy, cut them some slack and playfully jokingly brush off teasing comment.
Sometimes the boys really mean no harm and they were just teasing. (their way of being closer to you LOL)
If its serious matters approach it seriously and talk about it, i'm sure he will understand.

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I shall attempt to pass my driving on the first try!

i have been very hardworking and going for lessons regularly.

Plan to take my traffic police test mid of next month.

hopefully everything goes smoothly

i'm going to book it tomorrow!

below is bouts of narcissism from my bestfriend and myself. on a random sleepover LOL.

meet: joh

and my bed and pillow.

Bunny expression 1#
(joh)

This reminds me to get my specs fixed.

i sat on it one day..

and now the specs are bent and i can't wear them :(

Bunny expression 2#
(cyn)

Need to get a haircut soon

and my wisdom teeth is growing.

no pain or discomfort

however my gum is hanging out from the left upper jaw where the teeth is growing.

somehow i ate chicken wings that day and a small part of my gums manage to kinda dislodge partially

so now i have like a piece of a part of my gums hanging there where the wisdom tooth is pushing itself out.

i dont even know if anybody get what i mean.

oh well.

I SPY MY GRAD ROBE HANGING BEHIND

-_-

HAHA true end!

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how to save money in a long term relationship.

2011-06-09T00:10:00.008+08:00

1. Catch non blockbuster films on funshion( go to www.funshion.com) instead of going to the cinemas. (its a free movie streaming site. does not work on MAC operating system though)
Cook your own dinner and sit in front of the laptop and watch, laze on the bed and watch the film lying down. Comfy, private, quiet and no one to disturb you.

2. alternatively, you can watch it at Golden village on weekdays pay by DBS/POSB debit card for 7 dollar movie tickets, or watch in cathay cinemas with a discount if you have passion card. If you're a student weekdays movies before 5 are at 6 bucks nett ( must show student card).
Information based on experience and memory so if price is abit off don't blame me HAHA

3.Eat at the coffee shop or foodcourt instead of a restaurant. eat at home.
At a coffee shop your damage is maybe about 11 bucks for 2 people if you order drinks.
Versus a restaurant you pay maybe times 3 that amount maybe around $35?
Of course spend that money sometimes when you want to have nice food. which leads on to my next point.

4. Do not buy drinks from coffee shops.
LOL in my opinion drinks from coffee shops are damn overpriced $1.50 for milo and all. i mean 1.50 is a small amount right, most people don't think much and just get the drink anyway including myself, but i found out that if you eat every day for 5 days and not drink you save about $7.50 thats a movie ticket saved HAHAHA! bring your own water, or get it from ntuc or fairprice still cheaper.

THIS IS DEFINITELY for the damn broke. if not no one really bothers about the $1.50.

5.Do not window shop when you have money.
If you window shop with no money thats fine but thats torturing yourself. However if you don't intend to buy anything and go window shopping, there is a high chance you might see something you like and get it anyway because you can.

6. Cheap yet fun dates instead of romantic and expensive ones.
Don't think dinner and restaurant, think kite flying and a picnic.
think doing a puzzle together. think visiting new places together. maybe running errands together?

hahaha i don't know any other ideas?
You tell me!

ps. i love cool camera filters!

Edited:

okay some friends gave suggestions!

7) spend time together, save money and free workout at the same time
self explanatory and for your own imagination to decipher haha!

An example could be: jog together!

8) Wash car/bike together.
kinda fun really but expect going back needing a bath :)

Attractive girls get it easy!

2011-06-07T01:56:00.000+08:00

Documentary : Sexy Girls Have It Easy from Bright Hand Pictures on Vimeo.

Although she acted differently when she was dolled up versus when she wasn't
the results are still true.

Attractive women still get it easier.
Also a survey trying to find out what men think is attractive in women show that the waist to hip ratio play an important role.
Scientist suggest that a women with waist the ratio of 7/10 to her hips has the perfect waist to hip ratio.
and men are more attracted to them LOL

Which girl is your fave?

Majority would pick C and B was the least likely picked.

Garden shoot

2011-06-06T02:05:00.002+08:00

photo blogging.
A random photoshoot :D heehee

HEE HEE

This pink leaves one is alvin's(photographer) favourite

i name it "face of innocence"

HAHAHAHHA

i'm just kidding! not that shameless HAH!

i just think this photo show me sweeter than i actually am.

"rapunzel feel"

according to alvin.

"Alice in wonderland" feel

according to alvin

HAHAHAHAHHA

My current fb display picture.

Credits: Alvin Lee :)

END

so i've been busy with driving
waiting for school to start in JULY 11
and in the meantime looking for jobs to fill in my time.

Been away from school for so long, don't really feel like going back to it.
i feel like a little kid dreading school again.
come July 11
and it'll be "the first day of school" again
Been accepted into the course in RMIT business management doing the advance course in SIM
And will probably be going for the enrollment and induction very soon.

AND WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I NEVER HAVE ENOUGH MONEY.
i swear i'm gonna change all these.

oh and my graduation ;)

the robe not nice one :(
but this is 3 years of education LOL!

XOXO

formspring.me

2011-05-28T21:18:00.001+08:00

Just ask me! whatever you want. http://formspring.me/neoxinrong

birthdays

2011-05-27T20:25:00.001+08:00

Rachel's 21st

Kim Seng's 21st

paul's 21st

Happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to you.
(in a singing voice)

ps. :) officially graduated from polytechnic.

I want to work and study at the same time.

2011-05-25T03:51:00.000+08:00

i'm so excited!
going for my first driving lesson tomorrow!
hopefully i get more cash from my work and stuff.

i need more jobs :(
i'm so excited for so many things.

would probably have many interesting things to blog soon!

Next,

2011-05-22T04:24:00.001+08:00

Science behind kisses and monogamy

2011-05-21T01:23:00.001+08:00

Was bored so i googled about the science behind kisses and i found out interesting stuff!

Taken from a website:

There's always the romantic notion that a kiss is the connection of two souls and that it binds lovers together. I've recently found out however that whether or not we like kissing someone is not down to emotions and how we feel about them,but there's a scientific explanation to kissing and who we choose to be with.There's a cluster of chromosomes present in the body called MHC (major histocompatibility complex) which controls part of your immune system. We are pre-programmed to find mates who have a different MHC from us. This ensures that our off-spirings will have a more diverse and thus stronger immune system.MHC is present in both pheromones and saliva. The first kiss with someone is when your brain can really detect if he/she is a match for you. When kissing someone, you are close enough to smell them and there is an exchange of saliva.

And read from an article:

"Males tend to kiss as a means of gaining sexual favors, or as a means of affecting reconciliation," says Gordon G. Gallup, a professor of psychology at the University at Albany. "Females kiss more as a mate-assessment device."
Read more: http://newsfeed.time.com/2011/02/14/the-science-of-smooching-why-we-kiss-and-how-men-and-women-do-it-differently/#ixzz1MuT7EBIz

Interesting huh!
people always say how millions of bacteria get transmitted through kissing.
Now we know good hormones like feel-good hormones and stress reducing hormones and oxytocin (regarded as love hormones) are also the result of kissing.

in the articles it somehow states that men usually kiss for shallow reasons LOL.

Interesting insect:
praying mantis: the misunderstood seductress
Although the praying mantis is known for its cannibalistic mating process in actuality it only occurs 5-31% of the time. Especially in laboratory conditions of bright lights and confinement, the female is more likely to eat the male as means of survival. "In nature, mating usually takes place under cover, so rather than leaning over the tank studying their every move, we left them alone and videotaped what happened. We were amazed at what we saw. Out of thirty matings, we didn't record one instance of cannibalism, and instead we saw an elaborate courtship display, with both sexes performing a ritual dance, stroking each other with their antennae before finally mating. It really was a lovely display". There is one species, however, the Mantis religiosa, in which it is necessary that the head be removed for the mating to take effect properly. Sexual cannibalism occurs most often if the female is hungry. But eating the head does causes the body to ejaculate faster.

FUN FACTS ABOUT ANIMAL LOVE!

Animals that mate for life:

Gibbons
Gibbons are the nearest relatives to humans that mate for life. They form extremely strong pair bonds and exhibit low sexual dimorphism, which means that males and females of the species are of roughly equal size, a testament to the fact that both sexes are on relatively equal footing in their relationships.

Swans
Swans form monogamous pair bonds that last for many years, and in some cases these can last for life. Their loyalty to their mates is so storied that the image of two swans swimming with their necks entwined in the shape of a heart has become a nearly universal symbol of true love.

Albatrosses
An albatross may fly great distances over the oceans, but despite its extensive travels, this bird will always return to the same place and the same partner when it’s time to breed. Pair bonds between males and females form over several years and will last for a lifetime, cemented through the use of goofy but affectionate ritual dances.

Turtle doves
There’s a reason that turtle doves come in pairs of two in the song The Twelve Days of Christmas. These emblems of love and faithfulness have even inspired poetry in Shakespeare, being the subject of his poem The Pheonix and the Turtle.

Read more: http://www.care2.com/greenliving/8-animals-that-mate-for-life.html#ixzz1MueE5n3G

Very very interesting! got it from the website.
i think penguins and bald eagles and some breed of vultures also mate for life.

Even animals have faithful monogamous relationships.

LOL
On the issue of marriage.
i don't think polygamy works as it stirs up too much negativity.
Although one of our ministers once suggested polygamy as one of the ways to correct singapore declining birthrate, have less unmarried women etc, looking at the singapore we have today, i think its hard to introduce polygamy to our society as there will be alot of social problems after.

And yes this could solve the pressing issues at hand, however i feel that this would cause more social issues in the future. Higher divorce rates might be caused, as there are jealousy between the women in the household. How about the issue of women practicing polygamy instead? (meaning the women have more than one husband) because women now a days are more affluent and also have the knowledge and means to. How about health problems that arises from sexual relationship with more than one partner?

In the past the rich men often have more than one wife because they can afford it and because these girls "marry up". Girls in the past have no education and rely on the men to provide for them. however it is not the same for girls now.

well just my opinion.
polygamy is still not allowed by Singapore law. ( excluding the laws of muslim marriages)

ps. pardon my random post.
had a random chat with a friend about polygamy the other day hence the post.

monogamy is the way
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

:(

2011-05-18T04:55:00.001+08:00

this mv is saddening,
although i dont really get what it totally means
but i get the main parts.

and its post worthy cause the singer is so handsome.

I hope someone can explain the total meaning of this song to me.

brighten up my space.

2011-05-18T02:29:00.000+08:00

i havent blogged so regularly in a long time, but i just needed an outlet to express my thoughts and feelings.
in an attempt to brighten up this very dark and dreary place

i shall share a joke in the form of a picture.

tomorrow will be better :)

plans

2011-05-17T17:48:00.003+08:00

at first i was thinking of cooping myself at home for a week LOL
but i think i'll turn moldy.
maybe i should go out? but that requires money and i don't have much left.. which sucks.

Need to think and rationalize everything that has happened
read a twitter status yesterday.
"So care less, think less, love less, expect less. At the end of the day, you will only hurt yourself less."

How selfish.
but how true.
I know i'll never do that because where's all the sincerity in caring less, loving less?
and if there are no expectations then there is no basis of a real relationship.
People get hurt and hurt enough to make that status the motto of their life.
which is really sad, really sad and selfish.
How about the next person that gives you 100% of care and love.
just because of your past hurt, you're going to inflict that same hurt on someone else.

fuck all of what i just said, never meant to make it sound like that
but still turn out sounding self righteous.

i don't want something perfect.
i want something real and fought for.
is this unrealistic?

maybe this is one huge obstacle
that might make us or break us.

ps. i still can't find the right words to say, my head feels like it has too much to think about

not worth fighting for

2011-05-16T22:21:00.002+08:00

why is it that human beings are so easily swayed?

is it not worth fighting for? not worth trying harder for?

i don't want perfection. never asked for it.

what i want is simple.

this time i didn't really say much.

i had so many things to say but i couldn't, wouldn't.

i was afraid that when i spoke everything would start coming out.

i held everything in, i knew that i was this close to breaking.

i wanted to say something but i cant.

just like how we type a message delete it and type another one.

how would you feel if you know you were so disposable.

No one is in-disposable but still it sucks to know that it's so easy for someone to give you up.

Work.

2011-05-14T19:35:00.000+08:00

Semicon fair 2011

Work was tiring
but worth it. Pay wise.
i'm just glad it's done.

thinking if i want to continue looking for other jobs because i know my money runs out really quickly.
But i'm so lazy and besides i have to also start booking my driving lessons.
i want to pass by september hopefully!

First time ever i buy 4d.
and of course i didnt win :(

2 days back i actually dreamt that i bought 4d and won 3rd prize.
must be thinking too much lately of money
and maybe my semi concious wish that i could just wait for the money to fall from the sky.

Going to go clubbing tonight.
It has been like what?
2 months since i clubbed.

See you guys later at butter!

general election and double standards

2011-05-08T03:30:00.000+08:00

i think this was truly an interesting and revolutionary competition between the candidates.
It got all singaporeans excited! lol

but why the fuck does it have to end at 3+ in the night omg
i have freaking work tomorrow
i am going to be so tired tomorrow
i hope it ends at 4 again tomorrow.

OHOH and i bought gold framed, biker sunglasses (haha i call them biker glasses, cause i think i look cool) HAHAHAHA

i'm just glad that there are more female MPs.
On the issue, of double standards
my opinions are
nicole seah is a very eloquent and passionate individual and pretty as well.
Pretty girls i think don't get taken very seriously because beauty is a double edged sword.
People just seem to assume better looking girls are not as smart, so when they meet a pretty and smart girl, the wow factor is X3, maybe the hype won't be as big if nicole was a man.

Tin Pei Ling is inexperience but people are giving her too much scrutiny over her kate spade bag thing which i don't really get.
At the end of the day, she's just a normal girl and she also has her material possessions and girly whims, being girly does not equal to not portraying the right image of a politician.
she might be inexperience and not know the right words to say, oh well at least her identifier is
"the girl who posed with her kate spade bag"

i conclude that i NEVER want to be a politician.
i don't think many have what it takes
you have to always be presentable.
conformity to a certain extent.
eloquent.
Always be under the scrutiny of the public.

not the life for me.

legend of the seas

2011-05-05T01:06:00.001+08:00

so i went for a short cruise over the labour day weekend.
LOL
loads of food.
haven't ate so regularly in a long time ( breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner, supper)
and my first virgin experience in a casino ( lost by the way booohoooohooo!)

LOL freaking alot of pictures....

of myself.

HAHA

random dessert that was the only food i took a picture of

actually i might have other photos in my digital camera but i;m only posting the ones in my iphone

this photo is hilarious! lol actually i have another one covering a naked female statue's boobs

I SHOULD SO POST THAT.

on a random note! i passed my FTT hohohoh!

on the 2nd day of my short getaway
we took a boat from the ferry to malacca and went on a short history/plantation tour
i love the story of this statue most.

this statue saint francis xavier build outside the st paul church has no right hand, and the story of the disappearance of the right hand is so interesting

Why is Statue without its right arm?

There’s an interesting incident which led to its current condition. The morning after the blessing ceremony in 1953, a large casuarinas tree fell on the statue but damaged only the right arm.
Why the broken arm was never been fixed again? It was mainly due to the legendary miracle that happened in the year 1614.
In 1614, St. Francis Xavier’s right forearm which he used to bless and baptize his converts was detached by Priest Gen.Claudio Acquaviva. The right forearm was needed by the Pope for his canonization in Rome. Legendary miracle happened as blood was said to be dripping out from the wound!

lol that was the net version
but according to our tour guide.
the st francis staue was made of marble and yet stories pass down said that a fallen tree branch manage to break the hand.
Later it was said that the hand was replaced and yet another branch fell on it and broke it again.
After this it was never replaced again LOL

what is so creepy is that
he was buried 9 days in malacca.
and then they dug his grave for the body to be ship to Goa in India.
all the while the body of st francis being buried does not have a hand as it was detached after he died and sent back to rome for some investigations or something.
the statue that they build to remember him has a hand though.
it's as if the hand doesnt want to be there!

ps. this is very random but i havent gone clubbing in like near 2 months LOL!

my parent's child

2011-04-28T02:23:00.001+08:00

sometimes growing up still doesn't make much of a difference.
i'll always be my parent's child.
and sometimes they just make unreasonable requests that they expect me to listen to just because i'm their kid.

i remember not being allowed to keep a hamster when i was in primary school.
i was bummed.
REALLY.

I even went to the extend of sneaking a hamster in my room and keeping it my closet.
I also managed to successfully do so undetected for 1 week plus.
so everyday i will open this cabinet of mine (where i put the hamster cage)
and play/feed the hamster.
pretty smart right?

my mom only found out near 2 weeks later when she was in my room hanging the clothes in my cupboard and there was the sound coming from my hamster's running wheel that led her to the cabinet which i placed the hamster.

BUSTED.

Very sadly,till this day and i'm 19 going on 20, i'm still not allowed to keep one.
urghh

i just raised the question to my dad today, telling him i want to keep a pet hamster and that it'll be solely my responsibility etc they don't have to worry about a thing.
and still no, was all i get.
when i asked for a reason all i got were crappy ones
"you do not have time for a hamster, you'll be going for uni"
"you don't even come home for 3days" (exaggeration, cause at most i only stay outside for 2 days and that isn't even often)
"you can't even complete your driving, how can you take care of a hamster" ( this statement most ridiculous, for one thing, there is absolutely no link and secondly, it's not that i can't complete my driving but rather i'm still in the process of completing it.)

so angry.
I'M freaking 20.

ohoh and my room revamp.
they said i could have it redecorated if i cleaned it.
and i did.
but what do they tell me.
"oh we're going to shift house, there's no point" ( thats in like 3 years, so there is a point cause i want to stay in a nice redecorated room for this period of 3 years before i shift)

aren't asking for much just
1. paint my room
2. fix the aircon
3. get new bed covers like 2 sets maybe
4. remove one table from my room
5. get a bag rack to replace that table (simple one)
6. get new curtains

aiya i can look over getting new curtains.
seee already minimize expenses loh

wah cannot
even me blogging all this is making me depress.
why can't i be rich so i can do all this by myself so that i don't have to seek anyone's approval.

ps. so going to buy the hamster then bring in to my house then see how things goes.
pps. feels like primary school all over again HAH

Babies

2011-04-23T23:04:00.001+08:00

i've been working at the baby fair these days and omg i wish i own one of them!

they're so cutttteeee!!

work's so boring that i people watch almost 1/3 of the time.
the people i watch there are mostly married couples and kids.

i think men that are so in love with their children and wife makes everyone go awwwww
they take care and are very caring towards their wives.

example
-help their pregnant wife carry their handbag
-hold hands and always helping the wife here and there
All husbands should be like that can! she help you carry a child know!

then there's those that carry their kids then keep smiling and playing with them.

Makes me feel like having a baby HAHAHAHA

kidding.

it's interesting to see the dynamics of a couple there were a few couple squabbles that i heard.
while some husbands are the decision makers deciding for their wive, others are more supportive and lets the wives handle the baby stuff HAHAHA!

SO RANDOM MY BLOGPOST.
but i'm feeling really tired, just felt like i havent blogged in a long time.

not special enough

2011-04-21T03:07:00.003+08:00

cause i do.

moody.

2011-04-18T06:50:00.002+08:00

LOL!

Went to Johanna's house to bake a few days ago, and its the first time i saw the other dog skippy!

damn freaking cute!!!! but annoying at times when he expects us to pet him and would come nudge us until we do.
LOL but damn cute, he's such a sweetie will come and sleep together with you

and here's Duffy the original dog!
he's grown much bigger since the last time i saw him.
Also very cute ^^

Some lipgloss that joh got cheated into buying at 7-11
Brand:barbie
price:$2
comments: Joh says its something that will attract ants and she feels cheated LOL!

PROOF of us baking the cookies

cookie dough being made into cookies
PITY I FORGOT TO TAKE THE END PRODUCT!

Slept over at joh's and went shopping at fareast the next day with her and bec.

i'm feeling kinda moody now.
and damn emotional lately.
maybe it's this weather, maybe it's the PMS which i've been blaming too frequently.
maybe it's the little stuff thats not going right.
to the point that i feel i'm not good enough.

:(

whatever it is,
i hope it goes away soon.

watched RIO and i think it's damn nice everyone should watch it!
LOVE the soundtrack and story line

also watched love and other impossible pursuits.
i think its depressing.
but still i think it's a pretty thought provoking movie.

ps. hate feeling upset. :(
ps. cookies were good. LOL

How much to give?

2011-04-11T06:29:00.001+08:00

This has always been one of my favorite songs.
however,
sometimes,
i hate this song.

this song is the epitome of vulnerability
it's real and sincere
but its vulnerable.
and no one likes vulnerable.

How much to give?
just like the song says
having no regrets and giving until there's nothing left
Not knowing whether it'll be reciprocated
No way of gauging

what's sad is people usually give their best hoping to get the best back in return
and in the real world, sometimes it's never even.
We choose people who are important enough where we're willing to let them into our world
into our habits and lives
and shower the care and concern that creates the strong relationship and ties between one another.
leaving ourselves so wide open that we really hurt when we fall.

it's just sad that it can sometimes be one-sided.

I always joke and tell the men in my life (referring to dad and boyfriend)
"men! they just don't get women"
but sometimes i really think they really don't.
They. Really. Don't.
they don't know what we want or what is important sometimes.
they are bad at talking about things (most men)
they aren't sensitive enough to sense feelings.

and sometimes it's so retarded cause we go fishing for the things we want to hear because they don't offer us any and ask them questions that forces them to answer a certain way which defeats the whole purpose anyway.
but we wouldn't need to do all that if we didn't feel we needed reassurance duh!
ughhh men! can't they be more sensitive.

or maybe i just don't get men.
-_-

By the way I LOVE <3 Relient K.

seafood and boys/men

2011-04-10T04:02:00.000+08:00

BEACH

BEACH RESTAURANT

And random stuff.

i love seafood!
my absolutely favourite is
Prawns!! i know i say this alot

but crabs, crayfish, scallops all follows closely.damn closely.

ate so much of those at Joshua place today cause we celebrated his 20th birthday and they had a barbeque.

we're all growing up so fast and i actually see this changes especially in the boys.
they have started to become more gentlemanly and offering to send the girls home
even in the clubs paying for our drinks and making us comfortable
they joke but i believe they are more aware of the girls feelings now and they try to take care of us.

truly feel like these boys have become men!

wait till after army and see what army can further do to them LOL.

changes.

2011-04-05T03:31:00.003+08:00

omg some photo from damn long ago when i have light colored hair lol!

and now i'm back to my normal hair colour!

lol i'll never dye my hair that light ever again.
look horrid without make up and spoils my hair lol!

i need a job really.
i am so sick of having to worry about spending less and stuff
and i finish my uni application thing so its time i get the driving thing done!

LIFE WOULD BE GOOD IF MONEY WAS MORE ACCESSIBLE!
really.

NOTE TO SELF:

i need:

more water
more sleep
more kisses LOL

i want:

New lenses
New clothes
New lashes
New blush
new pouch/bag and shoes

Looks like a long shopping list :(

Beauty and the Beast

2011-03-31T06:28:00.008+08:00

i'm not beautiful

enough.

never was.

never will be.

unless i go plastic.

i don't aspire to be more than i am actually.

i'm happy with the way i am.

i'm pretty confident on most days

and not so on some cause everyone has their bad days

i can look pretty when i dress up/doll up

i don't have to worry about getting fat

i think i look decent without my make up although far from breathtaking beauty

it's all fine. really.

i get compliments.

yeap i do and sometimes i am flattered

but i know there's definitely more gorgeous people out there if beauty is done by comparison.

what defines beauty?

some says it comes from the heart.

some say it's in the actions that speaks the truth and sounds louder than the words spoken

how about physical attractiveness

or being beautiful?

it's a superficial world

and we're all superficial to a certain extent

how do we decide if someone is beautiful?

beauty is in the eye of the beholder

one man's meat is another man's poison.

but what if the beholder doesn't think you're very attractive?

expecting the whole world to judge and rate someone the same(by physical attractiveness) is hard and dumb.

some girls like tall men

some girls like buff guys

some girls likes men with long hair

some guys like curvy women

some guys like their ladies petite

some guys like short-haired spunky girls

some guys like women who exudes femininity

but now i shall leave you with a question to think about.

How important is it to have the person you love, think that you're the most attractive person in the world even though you clearly know you're not?

my answer:

there's a reason why "just the way you are" by bruno mars is so popular.

he's worth the keep when he still thinks you're the most beautiful

after your workout session when you're sweaty, grimy and hair is plastered on your forehead.

when he says "you're beautiful" he's not just talking about the way you look, he's talking about everything about you.

sorry for the imagery

is it just a girls thing? hmmmmmmm

do guys feel this way?

do other girls not feel the same as i do?

ps.

never lie to us ( by us i mean girls) though, trust me we know if you don't mean it and what you're saying is just bouts of flattery.

however if you're truly sincere, we'll know too.

Note to self to ponder:

Ask and you shall be given.

Accept what you receive.

If you seek answers

then you have to accept the truth.

goodnight.

Alcohol: i'll take half cause i'm female

2011-03-26T01:25:00.009+08:00

Drinking: Men and Women are Unequal

by David J. Hanson, Ph. D.

When it comes to alcohol, men and women are inherently unequal and no legislation can impose sexual equality on them. It's absolutely essential for the health and safety of women to understand this inequality and act accordingly.

Contrary to common myth, not even men and women of the same height and weight experience the same effects from consuming identical amounts of alcohol.

Women are affected by alcohol more rapidly because they tend to have a higher proportion of body fat than men. As fat cannot absorb alcohol, it is concentrated at higher levels in the blood. Women also have less of a gastric or stomach enzyme (dehydrogenase) that metabolizes or breaks down alcohol before it enters the bloodstream. Because of this, women absorb up to nearly 30% more alcohol into their bloodstream than men of the same height and weight who drink the same amount of alcohol. Women are also usually shorter and lighter than men, further concentrating alcohol in their blood. Therefore, when women of average size consume one drink, it will have almost the same effect as two drinks do for the average-size man. If women eat little or skip food entirely, that compounds the effects of drinking alcohol.

Hormone changes during the menstrual cycle can also affect alcohol metabolism adversely, increasing the impact of alcohol.

Extracted from some article that i found through google!

why like that??

so we definitely have a lower tolerance.

i always wondered if it was true.

And once i knew it was true, i always try to "play it smart"

when someone ask me to drink a whole alcoholic beverage in one shot and that person is a guy,

i always say i'll take half of what they take and they SOMETIMES GIVE ME A "eee loser" type of glance or "whatttt?" so i stopped doing that.

but im gonna start doing the "i'll take half of what you take" thing again

only fair right?

most guys are very gentlemanly though.

they will just be gracious and stuff.

GIRLS SHOULD BE CAREFUL.

Cynthia's tips on staying sober for longer periods of time. (EFFECTIVE IN MY BOOKS LOL)

1) i feel that eating before drinking helps, nothing spicy though.

2) be hydrated

3) Hormones: i tend to be able to take less when i'm having my period, i'm not sure for other girls

4) cheat. when playing games try to win and if you lose drink minimal. usually in games, they can't tell the difference on how much alcohol you take LOL cause all are very interested in playing the game. They just can't wait for you to put your drink down and continue playing again.

5) cheat. when someone gives you a glass of drink, tell them to down half first before you finish the rest. This cuts down the amount you have to drink and also ensures that the drink being given is not drugged.

6) cheat. this is quite despicable, but works. Give it to your boyfriend/ guy who is interested in you/ gentlemanly guys, act the pathetic female who cant drink lol (kidding!) this lets the guys show their chivalry and you get to not drink.

7)rest between drinks, this is very important. proven and tested by yours truly. spam the drinks and you're quickly gone. wait awhile between each drinks you can go FOR much much longer (you'll be surprise) but i'm not sure if its like that for everyone:/

So i'll be applying for uni in SIM under RMIT

hopefully my application will be successfully approved!

2 years for my degree.

cause i already have a diploma in business and i can skip a year :)

APPLICATION FEES SO EXPENSIVE :'(

lol teehee! wah this one damn retarded!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!
happy 1 month babe! :)

XOXO

ps. is the font affecting anyone? LOL i like it but i dont know if it's tough to read.

next stage in life.

2011-03-22T13:45:00.002+08:00

so what's next.

so i've officially graduated from poly.

thinking of taking a course in SIM.

maybe work and study?

wah this is so hard!

and i've to book my driving lessons.

damn it so many things to accomplish.

HOW I HAVENT REALLY ENJOYED ENOUGH?! ;)

Could it be PMS?

2011-03-18T07:59:00.007+08:00

i'm talking about pre-menstrual syndrome.

Anyway,

i just had a quarrel with my parents,

bright and early on a friday morning.

but things are solved now, no thanks to me actually, i was being a brat.

i was damn irritable and rude and it's actually a really lame and childish matter.

i was angry at them cause i think they didn't care and just keep nagging at me to accomplish my driving stuff.

Seriously i am getting it done and booking and applying all the stuff

so just chill and stop getting on my case :(

why can't anyone understand my frustration.

Really horrible and bratty though, should just be more tolerant and think that they were just concern about my driving progress blahblah.

however frustration and irritation got the better of me.

in the end,

My dad was the one who "cajoled" me and then things got better and were solved. (wtf i sound like a really horrible kid throwing a tantrum)

BUT SERIOUSLY!

no thanks to him for being petty in the first place and scolding me for not meeting up to an appointment that we agreed upon perviously.

i mean seriously i already apologized, moreover it was something that happened 2 days ago!

MEN! why so petty!

so it was a freaking chain reaction.

dad scolds me > i am affected > got angry> mood affected(irritable) > lash out at everyone

i never truly blame anything on PMS and till today, i still do not know if its really PMS or coincidence.

maybe PMS is really just an excuse for us girls to be bratty.

HAHA KIDDING.

anyway i googled: symptoms of PMS

and this came up

The most common physical symptoms include:

-Abdominal fullness, feeling gaseous

-Bloating of the abdomen

-Breast tenderness

-Clumsiness

-Constipation or diarrhea

-Food cravings

-Headache

-Less tolerance for noises and lights

Other symptoms include:

-Confusion

-Difficulty concentrating

-Fatigue

-Feelings of sadness or hopelessness

-Feelings of tension, anxiety, or edginess

-Forgetfulness

-Irritable, hostile, or aggressive behavior, with outbursts of anger toward self or others

-Loss of sex drive (may be increased in some women)

-Mood swings

-Poor judgmentPoor self-image, feelings of guilt, or increased fears

-Sleep problems (sleeping too much or too little)

-Slow, sluggish, lethargic movement

and i display the symptoms in BOLD!!!

however i guess that my symptoms are minor.

except for the sleep part

i can't seem to sleep when i'm supposed to, and i get tired at all the wrong times.

Even fell asleep watching Rango at the most exciting part with the snake hissing and when the music and sound effects were at its loudest.

aiya nothing i can't cope with.

it'll all go away soon.

just need to do what i got to do.

I Do ♥ you

2011-03-15T05:53:00.000+08:00

HAHA:D

lazy days

2011-03-13T03:48:00.006+08:00

hi!

i'm so thoughtful because you don't even have to read my post if you prefer looking at pictures :)

havent blogged in awhile cause i've been busy going out :)

like clubbing with the girls

and hanging out with paul
and his friend kimseng. ( which is also my friend now LOL)

By the way i'm now using kimseng's iphone because he so kindly lent it to me!

YES I WILL BE VERY CAREFUL WITH IT :(

i'm losing too many phones too easily..

oh and my dad finally found out

which sucks for me,

he scolded me a bit, but we're cool now.

talking about getting scolded, he's also been bugging me to book my driving stuff.

sad life.

OHOH i finally tried the xiaolongbao buffet at the crystal jade in holland v

did french manicure for 9bucks.

HAHA my post is very non thought provoking today.
have been hanging out with rebecca often too

like going prawning and stuff.

prawning was sad that day.

only like 1 prawn was caught

never had such bad results before :/

prawns are delicious!

alan says they look like aliens.

MUST BE CAUSE HE WATCH DISTRICT 9.

(if you don't get this sentence, go google/watch the movie district 9)

i want to go overseas

and travel and tour >:(

yes i know random exclamation that is not even remotely related to the pictures
i'm a 5-10 proooooo ;)
i'm bored of my hair? any suggestions?? i don't want to cut or colour.
RECENTLY I HAVE NO BLOGGING INSPIRATION

some too sensitive

some i don't want it public.

have also been playing mahjong!

and more plans on singing karaoke and stuff LOL!
i need a job badly!

my finances are looking bad and there's so many things i need to settle.

can someone please feed me :D
and today is already the mid of march! time is passing so quickly and i feel like i've not started with anything important!

some anonymous guy even told me to stop procrastinating and start doing the stuff in my resolutions on my blog!

I'm super excited cause my dad has agreed that i can get a room revamp!

new wall colour

new furniture

possibly a new television

hopefully this can be accomplish by the end of this month!

i might try to take before and after pictures

cause i'm so excited :)

till next time.

and the thing happening in japan, i sympathize and feel fortunate that we are not plague with natural disasters.

victoria secret's model or playboy bunny?

2011-03-03T20:44:00.006+08:00

wah damn hot.

MIRANDA KERR

my absolute favourite victoria secret's model!

but i wonder if guys like vs models or the playboy bunnies more?

okay so i just googled some of the hottest playboy bunnies

and pamela anderson was featured 12 times on playboy magazine.

and marilyn monroe first posed nude in 1953

and there's also kim kardashian and carmen electra

LOL

i like marilyn monroe alot she is the ultimate pin up girl!

but pam anderson her boobs are super huge

it looks too huge to me LOL idk.

i think the girl brooklyn decker has best boobs LOL

she acted as palmer in the movie "just go with it"

haha! i was commenting that day in the theatre that her boobs look like pillows

LOL and the people in front of my seat turned and looked at me.

must have said it too loudly.

So now my 3 years in poly is over

and i don't know how to start on the next part of my life.

so before i graduate i want to:

1. get a job till i get my cert than decide if i want to further my studies. I'm thinking mass communication.

2. go book driving lessons and ftt and all

3. think about life.

This week i went a lil' crazy with my entertainment.

clubbed a little

sang karaoke a little

watched movies and mahjong alot.

hang out with friends and the boyfriend

i think i should try to hang out with the parents more, they've been complaining alot, especially my dad.

life would be perfect if i have MONEY and A DRVING LICENSE.

but its damn close to perfect now.

i hate feeling contented LOL

cause i really never am contented for very long.

so i'm just waiting for the next dilemma/ problem/ anxiety

and thats not a bad thing cause i strive to make right these problems.

love feeling a sense of accomplishment after i solve the obstacles!

or maybe i'm just weird.

HAHA.

Reminder for self

2011-02-28T00:14:00.004+08:00

single-hood

being free to make your own decisions,

do whatever you want,

not considering someone else's feelings.

it comes easy to me after being used to it

Its great to be independent

and to live and only have yourself to answer to.

rants on how people complain about being single or how they feel lonely.

Why do you not want to be single?

yeap i agree being attached does have its perks

but so does being single.

you can party like rockstar

you can dress however you like hangout with whoever you want

answer only to yourself.

do things for yourself.

lonely?

look for them friends

chill.

there might be those times where you miss having someone around.

but still

chill.

not good to rush into another relationship for the sake of company.

heartbreak and moving on

its like playing a sport

if you just got injured

you have to wait for it to heal before you try again.

if you start before it fully heals you'll just get injured again.

its hard and it sucks to not be able to pick up the sport when you're healing.

time heals everything.

warning: might be painfully slowly though.

Being in love

is tough.

you have to consider someone elses feelings

you have to get use to his/her attitudes personality differences and temperament

its even harder to find someone who compliments you and who is compatible.

even harder now when we are all so jaded and cynical about other people because of our own share of heartbreak and betrayals.

i know this post is v scrambled and stuff cause i'm rushing off to play mj

but i just love this song and feel like it conveys what i've always felt about some stuff.

ps. it feels weird that situations are all changing now not in a bad way though.

pps. 26-2-2011

the last paper.

2011-02-22T23:39:00.002+08:00

i've no blogging inspiration lately.

thrice i tried to blog.

and twice nothing came to my mind.

Finally on the third attempt ( 3's a charm lol) i shall just randomly post something because i'm unused to my online journal being so dead.

Anyway LAST PAPER TOMORROW!

i'm excited for after it ( not for it)

and i'm a little worried for it.

This is the subject that i haven't really gone for tutorials and lecture!

and so i'm kinda lost.

what to do, only can blame myself. not that i really blame myself but i know that if i regularly go for tutorials and all. i shouldn't be having such a hard time now.

okay i should probably go and read through now

ps. i watched a lot of movies lately!

-black swan

-king's speech

go watch 127 hrs!

its really inspiring and gory LOL

NEXT MOVIE TO WATCH:

just go with it.

life is not a bed of roses.

2011-02-16T05:24:00.005+08:00

Everything feels like its happening together

Regardless of whatever happens

i cannot rationalize any of my thoughts and feelings properly.

i feel anxious.

like heaps of anxiety being pilled up on me.

i don't know what else to say.

i know you enough to know what will happen

and how you might react.

and i hate the stupid circumstance i put myself into

and i hate that we have to go through this whole "what the fuck are we suppose to do now" phase

plenty of what you said was true.

i get really paranoid and stuff but still its not enough

just one moment that i wasn't careful and didn't check

and alot happened.

honestly this is the worse i have felt in a long time

i never ever blamed anyone.

i still don't

i know i did a big wrong.

but i really don't know what to do to make it right.

i feel really tired.

and then there's the thing with my parents

and then there is the exams

too much going on at one time

too many repercussions to face

i'm not going to blame the uncontrollable factors

cause its mostly due to my negligence

i really have alot more to say but i can't do so on a public space.

maybe a few months or years down the road

i can recall this matter and it would be like an experience or a dark phase or maybe we would start joking about it.

but now its just a huge pain in the ass

and in my heart.

ps.

i'm thankful for everyone who were there for me and helped in one way or another.

pps.

it really hurts to read.

CNY and random stuff.

2011-02-10T16:26:00.006+08:00

Celebrated Angie's birthday

went to sing K at partyworld in NEX shopping mall (only 2nd time there, plus bad directions given by angie, which caused me to walk round and round in circles tying to find cafe cartell)

so they had to come look for me instead -_-

anyway student price at partyworld is pretty cheap, 2hrs for 7 bucks++?

My voice still damn bad cause i'm still down with cough

but heck it! chinese new year!

who doesn't get sick from all the tidbits and snacks!

shit loaded this upside down!

urgh!!!

lazy to re-upload.

OH i havent eaten BA KWA at all for cny.

that is so. weird.

this reminds me of a joke,

i have this damn cute malay classmate and we had this conversation:

Aida: Eh cyn, chinese new year you guys eat BAKUTTEH right

me: huh?!? bakutteh?

Aida: ehhhh noo! not bakuteh, Ba chor mee

me: wtf! you mean BA KWA

Aida: hahahahahahah OHYAHHHH bakwa.

funny or what? so cute she.

recurring camwhore photos

damn nice

sing sing sing
then go for steamboat at Angie's place
then gamble...

which i lost.

:'(
and then chatted with the girls till next morning!

just haven't caught up with each other lives in such a long time.

Random but

LOVE this pic.

Rebecca's and my favourite!

taken during

some day of the chinese new year that we went to club.
LOL

girls like to take photos in toilets.

reason?

LOOK at them mirrors!

huge ass mirror.
bec's 2nd favourite

she says that she love taking photos with me cause we always end up looking damn nice.

HAHAHA!

Wish that everyday was cny.

EFMA EXAM OVERRRRRRRR!!!!!

shall enjoy the rest of cny

tomorrow gambling at alan's place again! ( want to win!)

and leaving the house now to movie marathon with leeshiling :)

till next time,

XOXO

The search for my favorite flower.

2011-02-03T03:13:00.007+08:00

Sometimes i hear people talk about the kinds and types of flowers they love

or what flowers their boyfriend got for them

and how _______ is their favourite flower

and i thought to myself,

i still don't know what my favourite flower is.

i mean i love roses,

they're nice and romantic and stuff

i remember receiving a single rose in secondary school (okay random)

if someone gives me roses i like the light coloured ones :)

cream, pink etc

idk i don't fancy orchids

they look kinda hard and stiff to me ( in general i it's just not my type of flower and i know there are many different kinds of orchids around)

i like flowers with super soft petals that sway with the wind

i don't fancy

sunflowers either.

i like what it represents though.

"sunshine, bubbly, happiness, bright" and what not

but i don't know

The sunflower is just not my cup of tea.

daisies,

yea i like daisies

just like roses. i like them

i like the conventional white daisy with the yellow center

i like that daisies look like the type of flower we draw when we were kids

and finally

i was looking for a flower with a pretty colour and is naturally that colour

and i like

the lavender flower.

so soft and sways in the wind!

i like the purple ones

and lavender smells damn good too.

so i conclude,

i still don't have a favourite flower

i have 3

i like roses, daisies and lavender.

ps. you talk pretty, like a flower :D

Similiar but different

2011-01-29T06:47:00.005+08:00

Today i just came back from a night of clubbing.

today i didn't get high, but it was a pretty decent night

today i see my friends high and thought to myself "this might be how they feel when they see me high".

today i met someone in a familiar place but somehow it felt different

till today i think i'm doing good on the style flexing and keep my opinions to myself bit.

(My blog doesn't count by the way. My outlet for my opinions is my blog)

Perspective in life.

Mine is always changing.

Somehow i feel like people who can go all out to enjoy themselves.

are sincerely more fun to be around with.

sometimes perspective shouldn't be seen as

right or wrong

i don't really think that there's a right or wrong perspective (unless it is some ridiculous nonsense)

rather it is the different way people look at things.

sometimes when we don't see eye to eye

and you start judging the person for what she/he does

maybe think of the WHY? factor.

why not attempt to look in another perspective, maybe you'll discover something you've never thought about before

so i was saying people who go all out are more fun to be with.

they're exciting and spontaneous

and this all leads to fun.

people who will do ridiculous but entertaining things with you,

people who not act like they are so in control all the time.

yes people will judge you for not being in control of yourself but those aren't your friends

it would suck to be a mood dampener though.

Just cause you want to do it your way everyone has to follow you and no one does what they truly want.

sometimes its kinda hypocritical to say something like:

"who cares if other people judge you, they don't really know you anyway"

i mean i say that all the time to other people (not being hypocritical on purpose cause i believe in this statement)

but yet i also believe that deep down everybody wants to give the best kind of impression to other people, and sometimes people fail to think of themselves.

like maybe asking themselves why they choose to act a certain way that give of that same impression that allows others to judge you.

we want everything to go right

we want the best of many worlds

no i think the word isn't hypocritical.

i should actually use Ironic.

Anyway today everything was the same

same day same people same setting

but yet it was different.

A good different i guess.

ps. i'm freaking cool i just blogged all of this at 7am in the morning and i have had deprived sleep for the past 3 days.

AWESOME

now i can go to bed with everything thought about.

maintainance

2011-01-27T21:32:00.006+08:00

Harry Burns: There are two kinds of women: high maintenance and low maintenance.
Sally Albright: Which one am I?
Harry Burns: You're the worst kind; you're high maintenance but you think you're low maintenance.
Sally Albright: I don't see that.
Harry Burns: You don't see that? Waiter, I'll begin with a house salad, but I don't want the regular dressing. I'll have the balsamic vinegar and oil, but on the side. And then the salmon with the mustard sauce, but I want the mustard sauce on the side. "On the side" is a very big thing for you.
Sally Albright: Well, I just want it the way I want it.
Harry Burns: I know; high maintenance.

-When harry met sally(1989)

Don't think there's a better one if i compare

cause i'm politically right like that.

LOL

(disclaimer: the adjectives are just my opinions)

high maintenance people

1) look like a superstar

2) life of the party

3) emotionally dependent

4) perfectionist

5) picky and fussy

6) exciting and challenging

7) spend alot

low maintenance people

1)independent

2)predictable

3)do not need as much attention

4)easy going

5)do not look like a superstar

6) down to earth

7) dependable

Masochistic

2011-01-24T16:06:00.005+08:00

yea

and we'll all still click yes anyway,

if we're not over the person.

We know we might not like what we see, but still we WANT to see.

Its actually kind of easy to decide when feelings are involved.

You just do what you want to do.

Sometimes its the stupid thing to do

but we do them anyway,

decisions guided by the heart instead of the brain.

its like clicking the self destruct button.

but we press it anyway.

ps this is just image that i found interesting :)

LOVE ACTUALLY is all around.

2011-01-18T20:52:00.005+08:00

Miss you much joh, hope there's more time for us.

How many of us have love stories like the ones depicted in movies?

Bucket list:

1o. To experience a love story like in the movies

just another to add. :)

so LOVE ACTUALLY is all around.

Maybe we just don't notice, or fail to realize

or let it walk right pass us.

feeling kinda depress now.

just watched love actually.

happy ending but i get a depress kinda feeling =.=

ironic.

The movies answers all the question i write below.

"how long can you stay in love with someone?"

"how far will you go to understand someone?"

"how long can you secretly love someone even though its not reciprocated?"

"how much are you willing to do for you loved one?"

"Will you go against your belief for the ones you love?"

"When will you finally notice that the person you need has been with you all the time?"

"Will you suffer in silence and forgive the one you love?"

"Will you grab the opportunity or not do anything and watch as it leaves you?"

i think there are many sad elements in the show that people might miss out, but i think its how all these subtle bad things that happen in the show make it more realistic and believable

WHICH MAKES THE SHOW DAMN BLOODY GOOD (say this in a british way!)

its an english show by the way.

The world is a shallow place.

Anyway why do people think "not bad looking" is a compliment?

to me.

"good looking"

"gorgeous"

"pretty"

"beautiful"

those are compliments.

"not bad looking" ? thats just blahhhhh

its like saying

"Hey! you're not that good looking"

see same thing as

"Hey! you're not bad looking"

which means

AVERAGE.

which means NOT a compliment.

and sam's first flaming lambo was with me LOL

anyway did i mention how much i love beer? :)

and flaming lambos?

and jagerbombs?

Sebas birthday.

Loads of beer LOL

yeap i know this post is all over the place.

just like how my mind is right now.

expectations are too high

2011-01-11T22:35:00.007+08:00

so i was having a conversation with a friend

and he said my expectations are too high.

i have another friend who too always tell me that people love telling her that.

"your expectations are too high"

but honestly our expectation aren't high at all.

yes there are expectations (everyone has them)

but its not illogical or unreasonable.

Actually its pretty normal and attainable.

Btw i am talking about our expectations in our partner.

for me, that person

doesn't have to be very handsome.

maybe just kinda cute, kinda tall

and personality would be something like "dan" from hellcats.

smart, interesting, funny, spontaneous

character traits like "hugh grant" from most of his movies.

listens to me when i say something even if its minor.

not brush me off.

when we hit a rough patch,

try and make it good again

and

not close the door in front of me when i do try

everyone has bad things about them, character traits that might not be great.

okay this is v cliched sounding and all but i'm just going to say it anyway

Only when you can take and understand someone's flaws then can you enjoy the full benefits of the person's love during better times.

I think people give up too easily.

i use to give up really easily, but my perspectives have change

i am a " rather regret my actions, then regret not doing something" kinda person

i dislike hearing people lamenting on how much effort they put in and not receiving anything in return.

why does it sound like a transaction?

It should be willing if something is given, if not, don't give.

if there's really a problem, talk about it.

Tell the person how much you feel taken granted for

but question yourselves first

"did you put in effort for the other person?"

Were you too angry that you weren't listening anymore when someone else was trying to make it right?

Honestly, sometimes i think i'm hard to communicate with

like i need personal space

i'm opinionated.

i accept people's opinions though, but i hate it when people reject mine

without trying to understand and without telling me why.

i get crazy when i'm high and do stuff i don't mean (high on alcohol by the way)

i get irritated easily

and my temper is like a short fuse.

okay but no worries!

I AM A LOYAL FRIEND so don't stop being my friends after you read the above statements!

if you're my friend, i got your back and will be there when you fall

plus i'm not the gossip, backstabber types LOL

and i'm super steady! really.

(yeap this all feel like an advertisement, advertising myself LOL!)

on a random note

REVIEW ON HELLCAT

i finish watching 11 episodes on hellcats (cheerleading drama)

and i am a fangirl of Aly Michalka

i think shes hot, sexy, cool and talented.

she dances, sings plays the guitar and is a gymnast

triple threat omg.

why so cool!

and i dig the story line of the drama!

Not too dramatic like gossip girl (i like gossip girl too though)

not too scandalous and unbelievable like desperate housewives

not just focusing on sex like sex and the city

there are great twists and plots in the story that are believable and keeps the show interesting and not overly dramatic.

plus i like all the dancing singing and gymnastic stunts while they are cheering.

and theres this part about the bestfriends falling for each other.

i know its usually a cliche

but in the show, it's totally sweet.

i notice that in shows where the leading girl have 2 guys to choose from where

one is the best friend and the other the love interest,

i would always hope that the female lead ends up with the best friend LOL!

and its usually ends up that way, although i don't think that happens much in real life at all.

(real life is just not that dramatic)

which leads me to wonder why this story plot is so popular, both in novels and in shows.

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xoxo

denial

2011-01-07T12:32:00.003+08:00

you know you are in denial when whatever you deny/reject

appears in your dream in another manner.

Love the first week of school after the short 2 week holidays.

Was greeted with an unexpected extended weekend from thursday to sunday!!!

AWESOME.

okay i don't have a direction today i'm going to randomly blog about things in my head

1. I cut my hair

like 10 cm off kind.

results are great!!

my hair drops so much lesser. (much lesser! you have no idea)

my hair actually flies with the wind now. ( previously too long and heavy)

and i reallise i can create jen anniston kinda hairstyle.

just that i cant do it properly cause i cant really use a blow dryer properly to do that=.= fml

2. Flea tomorrow!

everyone come!!

3.i am going to study today.

i've made up my mind!

wish me luck.

2011!

2011-01-01T13:43:00.005+08:00

i've been blogging for like 4 years already!
when i started out i was what 15+ and now i'm 19+.
(although this blog only have up to 3 years worth of blog posts)
and i'll never delete my blog.
full of memories and thoughts at different points in time.
pictures of different occasions, friends.

i'm gonna sum up 2010 with 5 pictures

=.=

lol the last 2 being recent=.=

HAH!

anyway,

i'm going to graduate from poly soon.

this makes me kinda worried=.=

i wish i have a clue to what i seriously want to do in the near future.

anyway i wanted to post my resolutions.

so my 2010 resolutions was:

1)drink 5 cups of water daily (failed!!! but my intake of water was more than 2009 haha!)

2)get driving license (failed!! this one my fault. i blame it on procrastination)

3)get A for IPP ( shit! this one damn irritating got B+)

4)hit 4 digits in bank account and try to maintain ( :( )

5)stay safely within 85% debarment status ( fuck efma. its at 82% nowwww)

6)having a sense of urgency when late ( yea i think this one i pass though)

7)Having discipline ( this too)

8)Being kind ( this 3!)

yea 2010 resolutions, sad to say. not one of my best years.

at least i kept 80% of my resolutions in 2009.

THIS YEAR my resolutions i intend to keep.

so i made them simpler and more possible to attain.

Cynthia's 2011 resolutions

1) get the freaking driving license

2) replace the iphone.

3) convince parents to shift home or redecorate my room.

4) Go on a vacation with friends.

5) finish unfinished business with Joh.

6) have more self control in environments where alcohol is present.

7) look prettier in comparison to 2010

HAHAHA i am not kidding about resolution 7.

Besides, my favourite number is 7!

okay thats random.

2011.

i'm going to make it good.

ps, the cool thing about today?

i woke up at 11.11am on 1.1.11

i swear its dejavu

2010-12-28T04:23:00.003+08:00

i see myself at the other end this time.

i dont like it.

i like being at the place i'm always at, but maybe this is just something i have to go through.

to learn?

to know?

to experience?

Its so weird how seeing my ex classmates today brings back so much memories.

to some, we were close, we were familiar with each other, then and even till today.

to others, we know each other by face and name but they are just another face in the many others in our memories.

and to a certain small group, we were once close, but now move with awkwardness and speak with uneasiness.

so weird how people drift apart.

and move on. move forward.

how many people can withstand the test of time.

any forms of relationship takes effort, takes initiative, takes courage, takes understanding.

how many close friends, that use to be the face you see everyday are now only a face among the others.

how many lovers, whom face you use to caress, now turns away from you because you can't face each other anymore.

taking initiative needs courage

and understanding takes effort.

everyone has heard of

"some things are better left unsaid."

but what happen to

"say what you want to say before before the chance is lost forever."

SO just combine them both

and you get something like:

"its better to suffer the consequences of saying the things you want to say, than regretting it later when you left them unsaid."

peace.

How smart are you, woman?

2010-12-23T19:19:00.005+08:00

Read someone's tweet the other day.

She says that she has a classmate who is damn pretty and who is now happily married to a loving husband with beautiful kids.

She described her classmate as someone who is demure, quiet, sweet etc

basically gentle and loving and all.

and then she goes on to tweet that

smart women get it less lucky because men are intimidated by them.

So, i was thinking that maybe

guys don't like to feel like their women are smarter than they are.

they like smart women so that there will be conversations and interesting stimulating topics.

but not to the extend that the women's opinion contradict or overrides their own.

Some more opinionated men, find it even harder to compromise or accept another opinion/ Point of view.

i once heard my guy friend say.

"a smart woman is one who knows when to speak with intelligence and on the other hand when to pretend like she doesn't know anything."

basically, know when to act dumb.

know when to give the guy's ego a boost.

know when to let the guys feel smarter and give them a sense of superiority (rolls eyes)

i agree and feel that there is some truth in this.

Sometimes i think we women do it on purpose.

we pretend that we don't know much, and after the guy tells us, we go WOAHHHH and then you can see the satisfaction in their eyes.

But if we do offer our opinions, we just hope that people do listen.

you can't seriously expect a smart women

to "dumb it down" all the time.

its so stifling and there is no room for free conversations cause she has to play it dumb and act like she doesn't know so you can feed your own ego and go on and on about a matter. (Disclaimer: not all men.)

I think smart women are unpredictable

thats why men choose to date simple, less intelligent women.

With smart women i believe that their ideas will always be contested, and they might not be able to predict and control the environment of the relationship.

which deters them from getting into one with the smart woman?

maybe?

Self reflect

2010-12-21T04:43:00.003+08:00

i'm gonna let everyone in on a huge secret.

i think i over analyze things.

yea and thats a major problem sometimes cause you make a non-existent problem a problem.

look at the previous sentence it has the word "problem" at 3 different places, and that spells trouble.

oh but the good/bad thing is, i keep this "over-analyzed" matter to myself.

i do not share it with anyone. usually.

When i don't share it though, it starts eating at me. (yes this is the bad part)

But the good thing is that i don't share it cause the "problem" usually solves itself when i find out that it's actually NOT a problem and no one actually finds out that this matter was bothering me anyway.

So its a very one sided thing.

AND these are times when i feel so stupid for analyzing matters.

and then there are other times,

when analyzing saved my ass.

when you think more into things/ situations

you notice the loopholes in matters.

this can help you

1. expose a lie

2. be cautious

3. understand the situation/person

and then you can take the necessary after actions.

Better than being blind to situations and then not see things coming your way.

Good or bad.

LOL

i don't think i'm over cautious though

i tend to be kind of trusting

everyone is right till proven guilty.

a cynic would probably be

you are only right after you've proven yourself worthy!

christmas

2010-12-20T04:59:00.002+08:00

my favorite season yet again.

i remember blogging about xmas every year since i started blogging.

my xmas wish is to be happy.

this week is gonna be packed!

hopefully i have some awesome blogpost inspiration!

PS. i received both warning letters for efma already.

FML nice start of xmas

but its okay i'm hopeful everything will get better:)

PPS. I'm a hopeless follower of anything to take me away from this hole in the ground. My favourite line in one of favourite songs.

Colours of the wind

2010-12-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

just wanna have fun.

2010-12-17T00:22:00.001+08:00

right there; refused to see.

2010-12-17T00:03:00.003+08:00

Why?

i don't know.

What i do know though.

is that once i put my mind to something, i get it.

i get things done.

so when i decide something, i shall just stick with it.

and now i finally decided on something.

so i guess it'll stick.

heavy.

but it doesn't hurt.

twisted

and thoroughly uncomfortable.

messy

it keeps floating around.

No more words to say

no more reasons to give.

i'm glad i am the person i am today.

at least i'll accept whatever comes my way.

i'll deal with it.

i might get use to it

it gets better always.

How important are you to yourself?

Misunderstood good girl

2010-12-14T22:52:00.003+08:00

Someone told me that i'm a misunderstood good girl.

a good girl.

is fillial

goes to school

does her homework

and stuff

so by being misunderstood it means people think that i don't do these stuff.

tsk i'm appalled.

actually not really.

because sometimes i really do, do stuff knowing what people will judge and say stuff and i honestly can't care less.

example.

when i go to a club and drink with the girls

i'm not going to sit there and not go up on the stage with the girls to dance

i mean there's nothing wrong with that.

what is wrong with a group of girls having fun, dancing their night away.

LOL and if we get called sluts because of the way we dance, then thats dumb and i wouldn't be affected.

sluts are women who sleep around, who are easy

us? we aren't ;)

so i'm cool think what you like.

we don't even dance with boys usually, but we're friendly though. LOL

its funny but i'll be more offended when people call me a prude rather than a slut.

at least sluts are hot.

prudes just complain all day long and are so "closed minded"

i want to do a cover of "colours of the wind" or "insomnia" on the guitar!

but i'm having the flu now.

and i'm having loads of projects

and i am THIS CLOSE <--> to getting debarred for efma

FML

Dream guy.

2010-12-11T00:33:00.003+08:00

Dream worthy.
Pretty boy: KIMBUM
Cute: NICHKYUN
Cool: RUAN JING TIAN
Handsome: CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY
Hot: ENRIQUE

what's your dream guy?

Sunshine-personality?
tall dark handsome?
stong yet sweet?
tortured artist?
bad boy types?
shy types?
geeky types?
class clown?
cheeky?
playful?
those that ride on white horses?

mine's a long list!

unexpected.
interesting.
playful.
enthusiastic.
fun loving.
serious.
tall
strong
loves me to death
cute
happy go lucky
filial
smart
sensitive
enjoys my company
sweet
silly
funny
spontaneous

HHAHAHA OKAY I'M JUST KIDDING
yah i'll go to bed and dream about the guy now.

ps.

literally dream guy. ( only in your dreams)

cheers!